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Need For Control	By : KSipesh Category: Final Fantasy VII > General Views: 8035 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 2
Disclaimer: I do not own Final Fantasy VII, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

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Chapter 10
Cid couldn�t believe what he�d just heard. "You�you do?"

Vincent, overwhelmed with his shame sat up and buried his face in his hands. "I told you�I told you to keep me in line and to remind me that my feelings weren�t important�"

"And I told you that they were, Vince." Cid got onto his knees and moved behind the gunslinger, placing his hands upon his shoulders. "I�I love you, too."

Vincent sprung up from the bed and turned around, his eyes blazing in the darkness. "I can tolerate any physical torture, but I will not, I cannot honestly be expected to put up with that sort of cruelty, Cid!"

"Cruelty?" Cid was stymied. "What in the hell are you talkin� about?"

"Although I can still find it somehow to love, I know that I will never be loved in return. Never." Vincent closed his eyes and hung his head. "I was shown that."

Cid got up from the bed and took a step toward the other man. "Vincent, I�m not lyin� to you! I really do love you�I�ve wanted to tell you for awhile, but�"

"Don�t, Cid!" Vincent�s eyes flew back open. "I am your slave. You may do whatever you wish to me, you may order me to do whatever you desire, but do not toy with my heart like this. I should have known�"

Cid knit his brow and reached over, flipping on the light. "You should have known what?"

"With the way you treated me before�always berating me, cursing me, that you would just use this exposure of my vulnerability to you to fuck me over like this." Vincent shook his head and turned away. "You put on a good show, too. I really thought you were into this, that you were into me."

Cid felt his hands beginning to shake and they felt cold. There was a sweat breaking on his skin and a tightness was coming up in his throat. "Vince�I swear to God, I�m not messin� with you! I did this because I, well, because I was honestly attracted to you, and I have been for a while. Once you opened up to me, I realized that I felt a lot more for you than I�d wanted to admit to myself. I�d treated you like I did before we were together because I was tryin� to keep you at a distance since I didn�t know if you were interested in me. Once I saw that you were, the fact that I loved you just got worse."

"You can�t love me!" Vincent spun around and faced him again. "Stop saying so!"

"After all the shit that I read this morning, there was nothing in the Dom/sub stuff that said that the Master wasn�t allowed to tell their slave that they loved them!" Cid took another step toward Vincent, but the gunman instantly retreated back.

"Stop it!" Vincent made fists with his hands and kept them at his sides. "Do not lie to me! I won�t tolerate it!"

Cid was at a complete loss. His mouth opened and closed several times as he wanted to say something-- anything-- to calm Vincent down, but he didn�t know what to do. Vincent was shutting a door on him and there seemed to be nothing he could do. "Vince�"

The gunman stared back at Cid, shaking where he stood. "I say that I love you because you order me to tell you my feelings and then you say that you love me, too. Unbelievable. I can�t believe that I fell for it�I should have seen it coming. I thought Hojo was cruel, but at least he didn�t fuck with my heart."

Being compared in someway to the madman sparked anger within the pilot. "Excuse the fuck out of me? I don�t tell someone that I love them unless I do! How dare you fuckin� accuse me of lyin� or just tryin� to hurt you like that!"

Vincent suddenly snapped back into his calm and collected air. "My apologies, but I am going to need to return to my quarters."

Cid was now terrified. "Vincent, come on�"

The gunman picked up his boxers from where they lay and slipped them on before grabbing his clothes from where he had placed them. Items in hand, he looked at Cid before heading toward the door. "I hope that I was�pleasing to you."

The pilot�s eyes were wide with fear. Vincent was leaving, he was really leaving. "Vince, please! Don�t freak out like this�"

"My body was yours, you even had my heart, but to have the latter made part of the game�that�s just more than I can bear." Vincent went to the door and opened it. He looked back over his shoulder at the blond. "I do love you, I hope that you find someone someday that you can truly love as well."

Cid flinched when the door was slammed shut. He remained standing alone for what seemed like forever. Part of him wished to run from the room and try to convince Vincent that his feelings were real, but his pride was getting in the way.

With his heart aching, Cid went over and sat back on the edge of his bed and quickly got a cigarette to his lips. He was trying to muddle through what had just happened, grasping for some kind of understanding. "God damn it, Vince� I just wanted you to know."

Vincent, in the meanwhile, went to his room and entered, locking the door behind him. He hurled his clothes angrily over to the floor, before throwing himself down on his stomach upon the bed. How could he lie to me like that?

Did it ever occur to you that he wasn�t lying? Chaos shot back from the recesses of his mind.

Being alone, Vincent replied aloud, muffled into his pillow. "He can�t be in love with me, no one will ever love me!"

You�re an idiot.

"Shut up!" Vincent�s talons tore into his pillow as he gripped it. "Just shut up�"

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The morning light poured into the small window of Cid�s room. He�d been up most of the night, only to finally fall asleep sitting in one of the chairs in his room. Now, the sun shone in, hitting him in the face and rousing him from his pathetic two hours of rest.

He stood up slowly, his exhaustion and soreness cutting through him, but his heartache was worse. Cid still didn�t understand what had exactly happened to make a moment of unbelievable bliss turn into his worst nightmare. He slogged over to his locker and pulled out something to wear for the day and dressed.

Cid then went over and picked up his pack of cigarettes, but noticed to his dismay that it was empty. He�d smoked his last few in the early hours of the morning before he�d finally managed to sleep. The pilot hurled the empty pack across the room and then just exited his room. As the door slammed behind him, he heard a strange sound and he turned back. There, hanging on his door handle was Vincent�s collar.

Upon seeing it there, tears burned in his eyes. He carefully slipped the collar off of the door and held it in his hands for a few minutes. The fact that Vincent had gone so far as to leave this here at some point drove home the reality that it was over, just as quickly as it had begun. Steeling himself beyond crying, Cid shoved the bit of leather into his jacket pocket and headed for the bridge. He had things to do and couldn�t let the bullshit drama of his heartache get in the way.

At least, that�s what he told himself.
A/N-- Yeah, I know, this was a short one, but the next one will be longer, I promise.
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