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Broken and Bonded Refrain	By : Crya2Evans Category: Final Fantasy VII > General Views: 837 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Nanaki�s speech is in italics.
Yuffie�s speech is in
regular text.
Song lyrics are in bold.

Nanaki/Yuffie
�If You�re not the One�

I sit on a rock facing the sunset, troubled thoughts
running through my mind. My tail swishes behind me restlessly, �thoughtful
twitches� as you would call them. And truthfully, they are because all I can
think of right now is you. How it felt to kiss you. How well you fit in my
arms. How much I want to be with you. My heart has completely taken over my
reasoning because I am positive that there is no one else for me. Despite all
odds, you are the one.

If
you�re not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?

If you�re not the one, then why does my hand fit
yours this way?

I lay on my bed, staring up
at the boring ceiling, and all I can concentrate on is thoughts of you: your
smile, your laugh, all the moments we�ve shared together. You were there for me
when my father acted like an ass. I was there when your home was destroyed and
your grandfather killed. You always seemed to be the only one who could
understand me.

If you are not mine, then why does your heart return
my call?

If
you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what
the future brings, but I know you�re here with me now.
We�ll make it
through, and I hope you are the one I share my life with.

We�ll be apart for the
coming battle; that cannot be helped. I have gotten so used to you fighting by
my side that I have come to expect it. I know that people see us and wonder all
sorts of things, but I can no more deny my attraction to you than I can deny
myself. I want to tell you how I feel. I want to bend to one knee, but I�m
afraid. You have another life; you have a home waiting for your return.

I don�t want to
run away, but I can�t take it. I don�t understand.

I want to be with you until the end of time, but I am so
afraid of losing you. I cannot bear to see you hurt with their accusations
because of what I am, neither human nor beast. I could not push that burden
upon you. I only want to see you live your life happily, even if it means pain
for the rest of mine.

If I�m not made for you, then why
does my heart tell me that I am?

Your father says that I am an abomination, that I couldn�t
ever honestly be the one for you. Maybe he�s wrong; maybe he�s right. I want to
believe that my love is enough. I want to say that what I hold in my heart is
you. I feel that we are perfect for each other, your yin to my yang. I don�t
think I can imagine my life without you in it. You have become so integral to
my being that I cannot separate the two any longer.

Is there any way that I could stay
in your arms?

I want to be by your side forever, to never lose the
feeling of being wrapped up with you, sharing life. I don�t know what to do
with these emotions; they are trapped inside, begging to be freed.

If I don�t need you, then why am I
crying on my bed?

He has no right to say such
things about you, about us! You are the only one who has ever understood me,
who had ever made me feel more like the adult I wanted to believe I was. You
understand the importance of a laugh and a tear; you never hated me or thought
me a nuisance. In your eyes, I feel like me and not some facade of a princess I
don�t want to be.

If I don�t need you, then why does your
name resound in my head?

I can�t think of anyone else
but you. If my heart could speak, if my mind could scream... I�m afraid, too. I
don�t know what to do with these emotions. I don�t know how to handle these
insecurities and fears. I don�t know how to deal with the arguments and the
fights. I want to be with you for reasons beyond even my understanding.

If you�re not for me, then why does
this distance maim my life?

It feels like we are so
far away now. Every time we are separated, I feel the distance like a pull in
my heart. I am incomplete and lost. Some say I should forget about what I want,
push aside these emotions, and stop longing for things that should never be. I
know I shouldn�t want to be with you. I know it�s implausible, but that doesn�t
stop my heart from beating.

If you�re not for me, then why do I
dream of you as my wife?

I had this dream once. I didn�t tell you because it�s not
something easily expressed. It was of the future. It was of you and me. There
were children, don�t ask me how. You were smiling and laughing. We were happy.
We had a home. The world had peace. The dream made me cry because as much as I
wished for it in my heart, I feared it wouldn�t come true. This world doesn�t
understand.

I don�t why you�re so far away, but I
know that this much is true�
We�ll make it through, and I hope you
are the one I share my life with.

It hurts when you�re not
around. I understand why you pulled away. I know why you ran. We�re both
afraid, and no one can ever understand. I don�t want you to leave. I want you
by my side. Forget about the others. Forget about the world. Together, we can
weather any storm. Just like when you stood up to Father for me. I want you
with me. And though I�m afraid, I�m also strong.

And I wish that you could be the one I
die with.
And I�m praying you�re the one I build
my home with.
I hope I love you all my life.

I always wanted to marry for
love. I wasn�t any type of romantic as a child, but I did still think about the
future. I didn�t want my promised because he was a jerk, and I didn�t love him.
I wanted someone who loves and respects me. I wanted someone who will treat me
with care. I wanted someone like you. And even if you can�t be with me, even if
you find your people and another like you, I�ll understand. That doesn�t mean
I�ll stop loving you.

I don�t want to run away, but I can�t
take it. I don�t understand.

I don�t understand these
feelings; I can�t rationalize my heart. They�re telling me that it�s wrong when
my heart screams that it�s right. My father says such things. I can feel their
stares, not that I ever cared. I�m so confused from emotions that suddenly
appeared. Emotions that I�ve never felt before. I don�t understand, but I don�t
want to leave either. I�m trapped in my own feelings.

If I�m not made for you, then why does
my heart tell me that I am?

I need your calm and your
insight. I need you to tell me when I�m wrong. We may not be the same on the
surface, but we are inside. I don�t mind the tail; I find it cute. I can�t help
but be attracted to you. I wish that things were easier, that there was some
way to stay together without the outside. Without the world.

Is there any way that I could stay in
your arms?
Cause I miss you, body and soul, so strong that it
takes my breath away.

And
I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today.

Cause
I love you, whether it�s wrong or right.

And
though I can�t be with you tonight,
You know my heart
is by your side.

We will be in the fight for our lives soon, on different
sides of the world, but I won�t leave you. I�ll be by your side. Take care of
yourself for me. I still have so many things that I want to say, so many truths
I�ve yet to reveal.

You better come back alive.
I�m not doing this on my own. You can�t leave me with these fears. You can�t
let my heart die. I�ve got things to say. You can�t escape from me now.

I don�t want to run away, but I can�t take it. I
don�t understand.

If
I�m not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?

Is there any
way that I could stay�

�in
your arms?

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Song credits, �If You�re Not the One� Daniel
Bedington

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A/N: Thanks everyone for
your continuous support. Please leave a review before you go and let me know
how I�m doing.

Ri: As always, my faithful
reviewer, thanks so much!! Rude/Shera was originally just a random suggestion
by my beta but then it grew on us and now I simply adore it! Thanks!!
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Broken and Bonded Refrain

Ifyou�re not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?

If you�re not the one, then why does my hand fityours this way?

If you are not mine, then why does your heart returnmy call?Ifyou are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

CauseI love you, whether it�s wrong or right.

If
you�re not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?

If you�re not the one, then why does my hand fit
yours this way?

If you are not mine, then why does your heart return
my call?

If
you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

Cause
I love you, whether it�s wrong or right.