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Through Pain And Tears	By : Seiferlover86 Category: Final Fantasy VIII > Yaoi - Male/Male > Seifer/Zell Views: 1168 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Title: Through Pain And Tears
Chapters: 2

Pairing: ZellxSeifer

Rated: M

Warnings: Yaoi, sexual assault, abuse, violence, self-harm, rape, consensual (Later), OOC

Disclaimer: I Don't own Final Fantasy VIII. It belongs to Square Enix

Summary: Ever since Seifer got back, he's been depressed and lonely. Some people aren't happy that he's returned. Will there be any hope for the tall blond? Can anyone help Seifer?

Word Count: 3, 258

Author's Notes: Well, here's my next chapter. Hope you like it.

Oh, and a friend, LilithIllyria helped give me this idea. So I thank her for the help. :)

Please enjoy!

XxxX

After Seifer had left the training center, Zell decided that he wanted to talk to the other man, find out what's been going on with him lately. He knew Seifer must feel weak considering what had happened to him a couple weeks ago. The shorter man knew that Seifer's pride was struck when this happened. Pride was one of the things that Seifer valued most in himself. But that was gone now, leaving this Seifer as a result of that. Zell was still fuming over what had occurred.

Who does that shit? Four on one? That was fucking cowardly, if Zell said so himself. Then again, he knew there were people here who were far less happy about the taller blond's rerun. But that doesn't give anyone the right to do this shit to him.

Regardless, Seifer's pride must have been gone for a good while. Because when he got back, he was not himself. There was something... off about him when he returned. Zell knew he was feeling guilty and was ashamed of what happened; it showed on his face. He hated seeing Seifer like this. Seifer—the once proud man, keeping to himself and not associating much. It wasn't like him.

Zell's ears perked up when he heard a noise and frowned. The hell was that? His curiosity getting the better of him, he went towards the noise. In the halls, it was relatively quietly, except for the noise he heard. It was unusual. There was usually no one out here at this time of night, so it confused the short blond.

Getting to a corner, he rounded it and stopped dead in his tracks at the sight that greeted him. Shock and worry laced his cute face. His eyes wide, mouth hung open, gasping. There, lying on the cold ground, was Seifer. He looked like he was in pain and to Zell's horror, he could see blood, and he knew that Seifer must have been hurt pretty badly. “Seifer?!” Zell ran to his side in record time, kneeling down beside the injured man.

Breathing hard, Seifer opened his eyes at the voice. “Z-Zell?”

“Hyne Seifer. What the fuck happened?” Zell's voice was pitched higher than he realized.

“Nothing.” Seifer groaned and tried to sit up, only gasping in pain when he did. He sides and stomach hurt like hell.

“Like hell, Seifer! You're bleeding....” Zell trailed off in his anger when he saw Seifer's stomach. The gash was pretty big actually. He helped the other man up, wincing himself when he heard Seifer loud out a moan of pain.

“W-what are you doing out here?” Seifer managed to ask, holding his sides. “I—I thought you went back to your room.

“That's what I should be asking you,” the shorter man said, slinging his arm gently around Seifer's waist. “And I was going to, but I decided to come look for you.”

“Why?” Seifer asked, trying to stand up better.

“I wanted to talk to you. See you how were,” he admitted. “Here, let's get you to the infirmary.”

“No!”

“You need to get this looked at!”

“I'm not going. I'll be okay,” he told him, frowning.

“Hyne, Seifer. You're bleeding and you got a big fucking gash in your stomach...”

“Zell... I don't... I can't...” Seifer stopped himself. “Please...”

“Seifer...” Zell frowned. “Fine, stubborn ass. But I'm taking you to my room. You'll stay there for a while.”

This caused Seifer's eyes to go wide. “What?”

“I'm not leaving you alone, Seifer. You can't take care of yourself right now, and since you refuse to go to the infirmary, I'll have to take care of you. That wound needs healed.” Zell said this in a tone that left no room for arguments.

“Zell...” Seifer was at a loss for words. Why would Zell do this for him? “Okay.”

Zell nodded and led Seifer to his room. As soon as they got to Zell's room, he typed in the code and ushered the taller man in first. He led him over to the bed. “Okay. I'm gonna cats curaga on you. Just relax.”

Seifer lied back, taking in a deep breath as Zell worked his magic on his wound. It hurt like hell, that much was certain. And the healing made it hurt worse. He grabbed the blankets in a tight grip, waiting for Zell to finish.

After Zell was done, he turned to the other blond and smiled. “All done. Howya feelin' now?”

Seifer sat up and stretched his long legs. “Better,” he decided.

“How did this happen?” He sat next to Seifer.

“I don't wanna talk about it.” Seifer turned his face away.

“This is the second time in two weeks, Seifer. Who the fuck is doing this?” Zell demanded, growing furious.

“Why do you care?” Seifer snapped back. “It's none of your business. I can take care of myself.”

“Yeah. Like you were doing back there?” Zell reiterated, glaring. “It is my business when I find you like that.”

“Whatever,” he hissed.

“Seifer, I'm just trying to help you.”

Seifer sighed and looked away. “I know. But I'm okay now. Can we just go to sleep?”

Seeing the look Seifer was giving him, he nodded his head. “Okay. You can take the bed.”

“What?” Seifer's head snapped up to face Zell's. “I can't do that. I can take the couch.”

“Nonsense, Seifer...” Zell gave him a look, letting him know that arguing with him would be completely pointless. “You're injured. It won't kill me to take the couch.”

Seifer opened his mouth to further protest this, but snapped it shut, sighing. “Fine.”

He smiled in victory. “Alright.” Seifer lied back down and watched as Zell got his blanket and a pillow. “Goodnight, Seifer.”

“Night, Zell.”

XxxX

“Zell, you really don't need to do this,” Seifer said the next day as Zell made breakfast. They were both sitting in his room, eating.

Zell sighed. “I wanted to, Seifer.”

“But what I don't understand is; why? I mean, I always use to pick on you and tease you,” Seifer gave him a confused look.

“Seifer,” Zell said in exasperation. “I just wanted to help you.” It was an honest reply.

Seifer frowned in return, still not getting why the shorter male would do this for him. He sighed, narrowed his jade eyes and nodded.

“Seifer?”

“Hm?” Seifer looked up at him, feeling his stomach flip at the obvious concern Zell was showing for him. He never had someone look at him in such a way—and the fact that it was Zell—well, it made the feeling intensify.

“Are you feeling any better?”

Seifer nodded, though it was a little distracted. “Yes. I'm fine, Zell.” The smile that Zell shot him made his cheeks flush. He hid it by looking down at his food.

“Seifer... you should say something to someone,” Zell spoke up, looking directly at Seifer with lovely blue eyes.

“I can't. There's no need. I don't need to bother them with my damn problems,” he stated, shaking his head.

“Bullshit, Seifer. I know you don't believe that. You're not bothering anyone. We need to know who's doing this to you.” Zell gave him a look like he was crazy. Why would the taller man even think something like that? It was ridiculous.

All this earned him was an odd look from the scarred boy. “Zell, really, I'm fine.”

“What happened the first time?” He had been rather curious to know. Seifer had never said anything to him about it before.

“Just got attacked. That's it. Nothing more,” He shrugged his broad shoulders, not willing to let anything more be said about what really happened that night. He still didn't like to talk about it. And he didn't want the others knowing either. What would they think?

Zell, who was curious, obviously doubted that. “Fine.” Damn Seifer was too stubborn. He would find out, though. It was just a matter of time. Though, he knew Seifer didn't open up willingly; you had to pry shit out of the other man. Before Zell could say anymore, there was a knock on his door. Frowning, he got up with a “I'll be right back,” to Seifer, who only nodded to him.

“Zelly!” chirped that annoying voice Seifer hated. He glared at the table.

“Hi, Marlene,” Zell greeted, kissing her cheek. Seifer, however, happen to take a peek to see what was happening, and had a sudden surge of jealousy rise through his veins. Even more so when she pulled him back and gave him a kiss on the lips. Seifer sucked in a sharp breath. He shouldn't be here. He was possibly going to ruin things for Zell.

“Hey, honey,” she cooed. “What are you up to now?”

Zell fidgeted slightly. “Not much. I was just eating breakfast. Why are you here this early? I thought you had a class.”

“Oh, I did. But, I chose to not go today. I wanted to spend the day with you.” She grinned at him, winking.

The martial arts loving boy gave a nervous laugh, scratching the back of his neck. “Ah, well...”

“Is there something wrong, Zell?” Marlene asked, narrowing her sapphire eyes.

“What? No.. no there's nothing wrong.”

She looked at him for a moment, then walked into his room. “Marlene.”

She took a look at the tall blond sitting at the table. “What's he doing here?” She tried to could control her rage.

“Oh that? Well, I said he could stay here for a while... you see...”

“Zell! Why would you want him to stay here?” She glared at her boyfriend, telling him that she did not like the fact that Seifer Almasy was staying in her boyfriends' dorm. “He's got his own room.”

“I know that, babe.. but--”

“I don't want to here it.” She sent a glare to Seifer, who simply returned it, not fazed by her in the slightest. “I'm going out. I will talk to you later, Zell.” She turned and walked out, slamming the door shut behind her.

Zell sighed, aggravated. “Damn.” He knew why she didn't like Seifer—he was the Sorceress's Knight after all, but still.. they had forgiven hm. Though, he knew some people weren't happy with his appearance. But, there was more to why she didn't like Seifer than he knew.

Seifer stood up and walked over to him. “I'm sorry, Zell. Maybe I should just--”

“No! Don't even think it Almasy. You are staying here,” he said firmly.

“But, I don't want you to lose her over me. I'm not worth that,” the taller of the two told him.

Zell's eyes flared. “Seifer. I don't care what you say. You are staying here. She will just have to get over it.”

The shock was on the bigger mans' face. He only nodded. “She really hates me.”

“Yeah. But this isn't her decision to make.”

“I know,” the gunblader replied. The rest of the morning was filled with silence from both boys. Both having things on their minds, but neither knowing what the other was thinking.

XxxX

“Zelly! Do you wanna go do something?” His girlfriend had an arm around him, causing the others to roll their eyes.

He looked down at her and slowly nodded his head. “Sure. What did ya want to do?”

“Hm..” She gave him a big smile. “How about a movie at my dorm?”

He thought about it for a second. It couldn't hurt to go to her dorm for a while. Plus, it wasn't like he had anything else to do tonight. And Seifer should be fine. “Sure. What movie are we going to watch?”

“Well, I don't know yet. But I did rent some good ones when I went into town today. I think you might like them.”

“Ohh. Okay. That's fine.” Zell nodded to her, agreeing.

“You know, that's not such a bad idea. Why don't we do something, Squall?” Irvine ask, grinning, causing said man to roll his gray blue eye.

“Hn.”

“Aww, Squally.” That earned him a heated glare from the latter in annoyance.

“Irvine,” he warned, crossing his arms over his well built chest. “I have work I need to do, anyway.”

“So? You can do it later. I think it would do you some good going out. Instead of being cooped up here in garden.” Selphie piped in in Irvine's defense. Plus, she had a point; Squall needed to socialize more than he did. Though he wasn't as bad as before, he still stay in more than anything. Mostly working. He worked too damn much.

He shot her a glare.”Fine,” he relented, only for the sake of shutting the lot up. While he knew that they had a point, he was fine. So what he liked staying in. Was that such a problem? Well, apparently it was for them.

Irvine grinned toothily at him, slinging an arm around the annoyed gunbladist. “Aw. We will have fun.”

Squall rolled his eyes and shook off the gunmans arms. “Whatever.”

“Don't be like that, darlin'.”

“Irvine, don't called me that. Again,” Squall hissed.

He just laughed, holding his hands up in surrender. “Okay. Okay.”

“Oh, Squally. Lighten up!” Selphie grinned at him.

“Hn..” was his only reply to that, frowning.

“Okay. I know what we can do tonight,” Irvine declared. “We can go to this club tonight and do some dancing. What do you think?”

“Oh! That sounds fun. I might tag along,” Selphie interjected, smiling widening. She loved to party. And she loved to go to dance clubs. She considered herself a good dancer.

Squall shook his head. “Why?”

“I don't know. It sounds like fun.” The hat wearing boy smiled a charming smile. There really isn't anything else to do either.”

“I see,” was all the antisocial boy said. He really hated crowed places. He tried to avoid them whenever possible. But, he highly doubted he'd get out of this one. He had already agreed to do something with that cowboy. Sighing, Squall pinched the bridge of his nose.

“Do you think Seifer would like to go with us?” Irvine suddenly asked, startling to whole group.

Squall blinked then shrugged. “I don't know.”

“Um, I don't know, Irvine. Last time I seen him he was pretty tired,” Zell tried, remembering Seifer not wanting him to say anything.

“Hm...”

“Well, we could try and ask him?” the chirpy girl piped up, nodding. “He seems like he needs it, too. I mean, after what happened...” They left that hanging in the air for several short moments.

Zell's jaw clenched at the remembrance of finding Seifer lying on the ground bleeding. He highly, highly doubted that Seifer would be up for going out anywhere tonight. “Yeah.” Zell opted for saying, instead of saying the reason why Seifer probably wouldn't want to go out.

Zell's girlfriend sighed. “Zell, let's go get something to eat.” she offered. She hated hearing Seifer's name being brought up, it only served to escalate her anger more. Marlene didn't even like hearing his name.

“Huh?” Her voice startled him because he was talking to his friends. “I'm sorry. What were you saying?” he sheepishly asked, seeing the look she was giving him.

“I said let's go get something to eat. I'm hungry.”

“Oh.” The boy nodded his head. “Okay. Well, See ya later!” He waved to the group just before his girlfriend dragged him off.

“Why do you suppose he's with her?” the hyper girl inquired, genuinely wanting to know. There was something about that Marlene that she didn't like...

The group shrugged in unison. “I don't know, Selph. I really don't. Maybe he loves her?” Irvine said, looking thoughtful. He really didn't know.

“Hmm.” The brunet girl looked thoughtful herself.

“Soo, who's gonna ask, Seifer?” Irvine questioned, lifting his hat a little off of his eyes, as it was sliding down a little.

“Ask Seifer what?” came a new but not unwanted voice.

“Seifer!” Selphie grinned, jumping up to hug him, making him groan a little, as he was still in some pain, though it wasn't as bad as it was. “Where did you come from?”

“Training center,” he replied, shrugging.

“Oh.” she sat back down, as did the taller blond.

“Howdy, Seifer.” Irvine tipped his hat in greeting.

“Hi, Irvine. Now, what was it you was going to me?” he asked again, having realized he still hadn't received a response yet.

“Oh that? Well, Squall and I were gonna out tonight. And we were wondering if you'd like to go to?” the auburn haired man asked, sitting up strait.

Seifer looked shocked for a moment. “Uh, no.. not really. I kinda just wanted to stay in.”

“Aw, Seifer. You need to get out, too.. I mean.. after what happened--” He abruptly cut her off before she could say anymore.

“I said I don't want to, Selphie.” He really hated when they brought that shit up. He didn't wanna fucking mention what happened to him them. He wanted to move passed it; forget it ever even happened. “I think I'll just stay in.”

She pouted and folded her arms.

Squall observed him. “You alright?”

Seifer eyed him back. “I'm fine. Just tired.” he admitted, but that was only partially true.

“Alright, Seif.” Irvine nodded to him, frowning.

Seifer scowled at that. “Whatever.”

Squall shook his head.

“What are you gonna do tonight?” Her question was directed at Seifer.

The blond shrugged. “I don't. Just watch tv or go to the training center.” He'd probably just stay in the dorm.

“Aw well, that's no fun.” she said giving him a pouty look.

All he did was shrug. He didn't give a shit. He just wanted to relax. “I'm gonna get going.” Seifer announced when he was finished eating.

“Okay.”

“See you later, Seifer,” Irvine said next, grinning to the other man.

“Yeah, sure.” With that, he walked off, not looking back.

XxxX

Author's Notes: Well, what do you think? Is it good? I kinda struggled there for a little bit when I was halfway through it. Then I thought of this. Well, anyway, I hope you like this chapter!
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