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Finally	By : Silverstargirl Category: Final Fantasy VIII > Yaoi - Male/Male > Seifer/Squall Views: 606 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Finally Ch. 3

Squall age 10 – Seifer age 12

Squall walked along the beach and
wondered where Seifer could be. He was supposed to meet me here an
hour ago. Its not like him to be late. He
decided that he had waited long enough and headed back up the cliff.
When he reached the top, he saw a familiar blond head in the
distance. He waved his hand and shouted, “Seifer....I'm over
here.” Seifer ran toward him quickly.

“Squall,
I'm so sorry. Matron needed to talk to me about something and....”
he paused with a frown. I..I don't wanna go

“Seifer?
Is something wrong?” Squall asked suddenly worried. What?

“Not
really.....its just...Matron wants me to go to this school in Balamb.
She called it a garden or something. Its supposed to be a really good
school...for special kids. She wants me to gather all my belongings
tonight,” he looked down at the ground looking upset.
“Squall....she told me that she is sending me
there...tomorrow.” I can't believe Matron wants me to
go tomorrow.....has she forgotten what day that is? Does she even
care?

“T-Tomorrow?....b-but....tomorrow's my...my birthday. How...w-why....w-would she send you then....,”
Squall stammered, crushed by this news. On my
birthday....she's sending away my best friend, the one I love, on my
birthday of all days....
“No...its not fair....I'm gonna go talk to Matron.”
Squall took off running toward the orphanage, determined to change
her mind.

Squall burst
through the front door of the main building and headed straight to
Matron. “Matron? Is it true? You're sending Seifer away
tomorrow?”

“Yes, it is
true.” She said smiling in her gentle way, oblivious to what
was about to happen.

“But...t-tomorrow's my birthday. How could you? Its not right.” Squall said,
half-wailing with panic.

“I
am sorry, Squall. I did not forget, but the day after tomorrow is the
deadline for enrollment of new students. If he does not leave first
thing in the morning, he will not make it.” Why is he
acting like this? I know they are close, but its not like he will be
gone forever.

“I
don't care. At least he'd be here with me..instead of me being
all alone. Don't you care how we feel? ” Squall was
practically screaming at her, tears of rage falling down his face,
his hands clenched so tightly that his knuckles turned white. Please
Matron...can't you see I need him. Please you can't send him
away from me.

Edea
was shocked at his behavior. She had never seen him so enraged. He
was usually incredibly even-tempered....almost too calm. But right
now, she was almost....afraid of him.“Squall...please calm
down. It isn't forever. Next year you can join him. I promise.”
She said trying desperately to placate him. Please.....please
don't be so angry...you're scaring me!

“Next
year....you expect me to be alone....for a WHOLE YEAR??? Do you
seriously expect that to be okay with me? That I'll be happy to
hang around all by myself. That I will...as you put it...forgive and
forget. No way is that happening. You're just mean. I HATE YOU!!”
Squall was shaking with rage....he
wanted nothing more than to lash out at her...make her feel as much
pain as he did. If she sends him away I will be all alone
again. I-I can't survive that...not again...Seifer promised never to
leave me....he promised. I have to get away from here.

Edea
took a tentative step toward Squall, which caused him to rear back,
baring his teeth in a snarl. “Don't touch me. Don't you ever
touch me again! I'll never forgive you for this...NEVER!”
Squall turned and ran out the door, nearly flattening Seifer who was
standing right outside. Squall flung himself into Seifer's arms and
pleaded, “Seifer, lets run away from here. Go someplace we can
be together. Someplace where no one will ever try to separate us.”
Please...you can't go..you can never go away...you promised.

“Squall, I
don't think a place like that exists. We're only kids. When we turn
eighteen we can do anything we want but until then Matron is our
guardian. We have no choice. I hate this too...I hate her for doing
this to us. Its not right...not fair, but where would we go? We have
no money...are too young to work. How would we survive? Think about
it.” Seifer said, his eyes filled with tears. I told
her....I told her this would be too much for him....and for me. This
hurts....so bad. Why are you doing this Matron? Can't you see he
needs me?

“Why does she
have to send you this year? Why can't she wait until I am old enough
too?” Squall sobbed. I feel like I want to die....

Edea felt her heart
breaking at the scene. She knew they were only children and couldn't
see the bigger picture. Seifer and Squall were both extremely
intelligent. They needed a better school...one that could give them
the education she was unable to. If she could send Squall this year
she would but at this time only children age twelve to eighteen were
accepted. Waiting to send Seifer for another year would only inhibit
his growth. Besides, a year apart would allow both of them to make
new friends. They were far too dependent on each other. I know
this is painful for them and that they might never forgive me, but I
am doing this for their own good. They need to make other
friends...this dependence Squall has for Seifer is unhealthy. She
took a deep breath. “Squall, that is quite enough. I understand
that you are upset, but Seifer is going regardless. This is an
excellent opportunity for him and I will not allow you to ruin his
chance. You will just have to be patient. I am sure Seifer will send
you letters regularly and perhaps even be able to visit occasionally.
Seifer, I have left a bag for you to put your belongings into. Go
pack.” I think I will wake Seifer up early tomorrow and send
him off before Squall awakens. Otherwise, there will be another scene
and the boat will be missed. I cannot allow that to happen. Seifer
must be on that boat.

“Fine,”
Seifer said sullenly, glaring at her with pure hatred. He stalked to
his room.

Squall began to
follow him, needing to be near him for as long as he could, but
Matron grabbed his arm and said, “No....you are to be confined
to your room for the rest of the day and all night. I will not
tolerate the kind of behavior you just exhibited. I will check on you
later to see if you need to use the facilities and will bring your
dinner to you after everyone else has eaten. You are not to leave
your room for any reason unless I am with you. Is this clear?”
He is never going to forgive me for this I know, but its for his
own good.

Squall looked at
her with hurt and rage, unable to say anything, his shock was so
complete. She won't even let me...be with him for what little time
we have left. She is....heartless. Matron dragged him into his
bedroom and made him sit on the bed. She calmly walk through the door
and shut the door. She reached into her pocket and pulled out the
master key to the orphanage and locked him in. She locked me
in? I guess she wants to make sure I don't run away or try to sleep
with Seifer. He had a feeling that he wasn't even going to get to
say goodbye. She wouldn't want to risk him convincing Seifer to run
away, if only long enough for him to miss the enrollment deadline.
Which I'd planned on doing. She really doesn't care that we
don't want this...does she? I hate her.....I will always hate her. He
curled up on the bed and sobbed into his pillow. S-seifer...I love
you and I'll miss you so very much. Please don't forget me.

When Edea checked
on him a few hours later, his supper in her hands, she found Squall
laying on his bed, sound asleep. He had obviously cried himself to
sleep. My poor darling....I know that this is necessary, but I
hate doing it. I hope that time will heal his anger and hate. I do
not blame him for how he feels. I know it must hurt. She sent a
prayer of hope to Hyne that Squall and Seifer would find it in their
hearts to forgive her someday. It would probably take a long time
though. She had been forced to endure Seifer's glares throughout
dinner. His anger had effected everyones appetite. He had been so
angry when she had told him they were leaving at first light. The
look in his eyes when he realized that she did not intend to let him
see Squall before they left had made her heart jump up into her
throat. She gave a sad sigh. I will just let Squall sleep. She
knew that missing one meal would not hurt him, so she took the plate
into the kitchen, wrapped it, and placed it into the refrigerator.

At dawn the next
morning, Matron put Seifer's bag into the trunk of the car and went
back inside to see if he was ready. “Seifer it is time to go.”

“Can't I at
least tell him goodbye, Matron?” Seifer asked, a tear running
down his cheek I wanna give him a hug and tell him it will be
alright....that I will write every day. I wanna tell him I will
always love him...always. Please Matron....its his birthday...must
you be so mean?

“No, I am
sorry you cannot. There is not enough time. Come now we have a long
car trip ahead of us.” She said firmly, clamping down hard on
her guilt at the lies. She headed toward the car and motioned for him
to get in.

I'm sorry, Squally. I wanted to tell
you, but she won't let me. Please forgive me. Seifer
looked up at the window to to Squall's room and felt his eyes begin
to water when he saw Squall's tear streaked face, gazing longingly at
him. He lifted up his hand, waving good bye and mouthed. “I
will miss you. I love you...always.” Squall waved back and
mouthed that he loved him too. Seifer gave him a watery smile, then
climbed into the vehicle and buckled his seatbelt. Matron started the
vehicle and drove him away from the orphanage. When they arrived at
the dock, she led him to the boat.

“Eh? You're early,” said the captain, who was standing on the dock next to
the vessel.

“I wanted to
make sure he would arrive in plenty of time, Captain. He is ready to
go at any time. Leave as quickly as you can. I do not want him to be
late.” Edea said, then turned toward her charge. “Seifer,
this is Captain Lawrence. He will escort you to Balamb port. When you
get there someone will be holding a sign with your name on it. They
will take you to the school. Please behave yourself on the trip.”
She held out her arms to him, hoping for a hug, wincing when he would
not.

Seifer
wasn't about to allow her to give him a hug, so he stepped out of her
reach. He looked at the captain. “Is it alright if I go ahead
and get on board, sir?” Why'd she think I would
hug her? I hate her for what she is doing.

“Go
right ahead.” the captain replied, confused by the boy's
treatment of the woman who had raised him.
Edea gave a sad smile and after taking one last look at the boy she
had raised for eight years went to the car and drove back to her
home, the orphanage. When she arrived, she climbed the stairs to
Squall's room and unlocked the door. “You can come out now.”

Squall turned and
looked at her with icy disdain. He stood and without saying a word
walked past her out of the room. After she and Seifer had left he had
made a decision. He would never feel again. He would embrace the ice.
Never again would he feel such pain. To be alone was better than to
love someone and have them leave him.

Edea was shocked.
She had expected anger and hatred, but not this. It was like he had
shut down all of his emotions. What have I done? Did I destroy him
in my quest to help him? Squall was never the same after that
day. All the joy and laughter he had shown when Seifer was with him
was gone. He never played with any of the other kids. He just stayed
by himself, never letting anyone close. Edea could only hope that he
would change back after he was sent to the school.

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