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Through Pain And Tears	By : Seiferlover86 Category: Final Fantasy VIII > Yaoi - Male/Male > Seifer/Zell Views: 1168 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I don't own the rights to Final Fantasy VIII . I am NOT making any money from writing this.

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Title: Through Pain And Tears

Pairing: ZellxSeifer

Rated: M

Warnings: Yaoi, sexual assualt, abuse, Rape, Conssnual, OOC

Disclaimer: I Don't own Final Fantasy VIII. It belongs to Square Enix

Summary: Ever since Seifer got back, he's been depressed and lonely. Some people aren't happy that he's returned.

Author's Notes: Well, here's something i came up with. Read and review.

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Chapter 4
"You're back early," Seifer noted as he saw Zell walking inside and shutting the door loudly behind him. He got a look at the other mans' face and knew instantly that he was angry. What would Zell be angry about? Did he have a fight with his girlfriend? Many thoughts ran through his mind, be he didn't vocalize any of them. His anger was obvious by the look on his face. What had happened in his girlfriend's room that had Zell looking so mad?
"Yeah.." he trialed off, still fuming over the conversation he had with her. He couldn't believe how she could say such a thing about Seifer. He didn't fucking deserve any of what's happened to him. He frowned. He'd been trying to get his mind off of it, but it was hard. What she said had really made him mad. He clenched his fists and let out a sigh. He just couldn't explain his anger. Why was he reacting this way? Why was he so defensive of the taller man, who he noticed was looking at him with an eyebrow arched.
"You okay?" the taller man asked, giving him a concerned look. He wondered what had Zell so angry. He'd never really seen the other man so mad before. Sure, he'd bullied and teased him all the time, but he never saw him looking this angry. He observed the angry man, cocking his head to the side, while looking at him.
"I'm fine," Zell waved off, brow creasing in his anger. It was obvious the other man was not okay. Seifer didn't like to pry, but this was Zell, and he didn't like to see Zell upset. Zell didn't want to bring Seifer into his relationship problems, not when he had his own problems to deal with, problems worse than Zell's own. He really didn't want to mention to Seifer what had happened back in his girlfriend's dorm. He didn't wanna make Seifer have anymore problems than he already had. Not if Zell could help it.
"Right," Seifer said, not believing him in the least. Because, well, it was damn obvious—to him anyway, that Zell was angry, what with the looks he was giving. He gave the other a look, telling him that he didn't believe him.
"It's nothin' Seifer." Zell went into the kitchen and got himself a drink. He was starting to feel slightly better now that he was back in his own dorm. He took a big drink, downing it in one big gulp, setting the cup down, wiping at his mouth.
"Zell, what's wrong?" the Ex-Knight asked, a look of concern on his handsome face. He wanted to know what was bothering the other man. Hell, his problems didn't seem to matter to him when Zell was concerned. Zell was more important. It didn't matter what had happened to him, something was obviously bothering the shorter man, and he wanted to know, forgetting about his own issues at the moment. Only Zell mattered.
"Really, I'm fine.." he trailed off when he saw Seifer giving him that stare, a stare that told him that Seifer's care was genuine. He sighed, raking a hand through his spiky locks, and frowning. He looked at the other man, who was still watching him, the same look on his face. He really didn't want to say anything, but Seifer seemed determined to get it out of him. Plus, how could he not when Seifer was showing general concern for him, a look he doesn't often get.
"Don't lie to me, Zell. You just came stomping in here, having a fit, slamming the door, and you expect me to believe that nothing's wrong?"
This earned him a sigh. "Plus, you are back early, too. I mean, it's only been what.." He looked at the clock sitting right above the stove, and frowned. "An hour?"
"Fine," Zell relented, seeing that Seifer already knew. He didn't realize he had been back that early. Then again, when he was pissed, he didn't really pay attention to time. He eyed Seifer. Seifer did know him well, more than Zell initially thought he did. He honestly didn't think Seifer payed attention to what he was doing. He furrowed his brow.
"Well?" Seifer probed, trying to get him to talk.
"I had a fight with Marlene," he started, sighing again. He couldn't believe he was actually going to tell him this. But, Seifer seemed to really want to know, so he figured he might as well tell him. What the hell did it matter anyway?
"Oh?" Seifer frowned, but was wondering what the fight was about. What the hell did she do to make him so angry, Seifer scowled, but quickly wiped it off of his face, not wanting Zell to ask any questions that he really didn't want to answer.
"Yeah." Dincht nodded, rubbing his neck.
"What about?"
"Uh, just, you know, things," he said lamely, fidgeting with his shirt for a moment.
"Things?" Seifer echoed. "Like what?"
Zell sighed, not wanting to really say it, but finding Seifer was being persistent. "She just, uh, said something things she shouldn't of," he settled for saying, hoping that would be good enough for the other man.
"Hmm.." Seifer nodded, crossing his arms. "What did she say?"
He silently cursed. "Fine. She said some things about you, things that I didn't like."
Seifer's brows furrowed. "Oh, really?"
"Yeah," was his answer. "And I didn't like what she said, so I decided to leave before I said or did something I woulda regretted later," he finished.
"I kinda guessed she might. After all, I know she doesn't like me, Zell."
"But still, that's not reason to say the shit she did." He didn't know why he was reacting like this. They were just words, so what did it matter? But, it did matter. This was Seifer, so of course it mattered. He just didn't understand to what extent he cared for the other blond.
"I know," Seifer frowned. "So, was that what you were angry about?" Though, he already figured that that had been the reason. Why would Zell get so worked up that he'd leave his date? And just over something his girlfriend said. He didn't understand it.
"Yeah.. it was," he nodded. He smiled at Seifer, who shook his head. "Let's just forget about it," the shorter man suggested. "I don't really want to talk about it anymore."
Seifer knew that it was probably a good idea to let the subject drop, so he found himself nodding in agreement. "Okay."
"I'm gonna head to bed, man.."
"Alright. I'm tired, too. Night Zell."
"Night, Seifer," Zell smiled and walked off to his bedroom, feeling much better than he had when he'd left Marlene's dorm.
Seifer watched him walk away, an odd look passing his features.

"Yo, blondie."
"Hyne, Irvine," Zell sighed, relaxing as it was his friend. He had just walked up unannounced and spoke up, causing said blond to be startled.
The cowboy laughed. "Sorry, Dincht. Didn't mean to scare you."
"You didn't," he lied, frowning.
"Sure," he drawled, smirking. "So.. where's your other half?"
Zell gave him a confused look, brows furrowing.
"Seifer," he explained.
"Oh! He's went to the training center."
"Are you... sure he should he doing that?" Irvine asked, brow arching. He thought Seifer shouldn't really be doing that kinda thing, especially after what's been going on.
"Irvine.. He's fine. Beside, I tried to convince him to not go, but you know how stubborn he is. It's like talking to a brick wall." Zell shrugged his shoulders. He had told Seifer that he really shouldn't—at least not yet go to the training center. Seifer never listened to reason, though. Seifer would do what Seifer wanted. That's how he always was. But, it didn't mean that Zell was happy about it. Damn stubborn bastard, Zell thought with a shake of his head.
"Something on you're mind?"
"No. Something on yours? Zell retaliated with his own question.
"No?" He made it seem like a question, confused as to why Dincht would ask him that.
"Are you sure? Not a certain brunet..?"
"No," he frowned, watching Zell smile.
"Uh huh.." Zell didn't believe him. "So, where is Squall?"
"Oh.. he's in his office, going over mission reports."
"Ahh. Okay." Zell nodded.
"Did you guys have fun on your date?" Zell snickered.
"It's wasn't like that!" Irvine protested, waving his hands. "It was just an outing.. That's all."
"Sure. Irv. Keep telling yourself that.. you might start to believe it." Zell shook his head, giving a slight smirk to the auburn haired man, who was actually blushing.
"I'm serious. We just went out as friends," the other man tried again, trying to get Zell to understand that it was just two friends, just hanging out together. Nothing more that. He kept telling himself this over and over, but something in the back of his mind said differently.
"Hmm..Sure." He still didn't believe it. He'd seen the looks he'd been giving his friend. It wasn't hard to miss. "Irv.. If you like him. It won't bother me."
"But I don't," he denied again, sighing.
"Okay," Zell gave up, also sighing. "If you say so."
Irvine glared at him. Why wouldn't he believe him? Could he tell that Irvine was lying? He didn't think Zell could tell. "So... where's Marlene at?"
"I don't know," Zell shrugged. He wasn't t thinking about her right now. Was that a bad thing? Shouldn't she be on his mind? Well, either way, she wasn't. His thoughts were somewhere else most of the time, and Zell tried to figure out why. He had a girlfriend who should be on his mind, but he knew his thought were not on her. Did that mean anything? He wondered this.
"You don't?"
"No. She is free to do whatever she wants." He knew he should feel something when she goes somewhere without informing him, however, he didn't.
"Hmm..."
"Zelly!" a cry rang out, startling both boys.
"Speak of the devil," Irvine muttered to himself. Zell shot a look to him.
"Hey, Marlene," Zell greeted her, accepting a kiss on his cheek.
"Hi," she said, smiling sweetly at him, sitting beside him.
"Where were you?" Zell decided to ask to just know.
"Around," she supplied as an answer, not delving further on the matter.
"Okay," was all he said to that.
"Hey, Seifer!" Irvine called, seeing a tall blond walking into the cafeteria.
Zell looked up, smiling at him, neither boy seeing Marlene glowering at her food, suddenly not feeling very hungry. Why does he always have to ruin her moods? Why couldn't he just stay away? She always asked herself this.
"Hey, Seifer," Zell also greeted the other man, who nodded at them.
"Hi, guys," Seifer looked around, seeing Zell's girlfriend there, his mood suddenly darkened just by the mere presence of the girl. She was always around, it seemed. Like, she followed Zell everywhere, which Seifer believed she did.
"Sit," Irvine said, nodding to the empty seat.
"Zell.." She turned to face him, trying to smile at him. "I want to know if we can go out tonight?"
Seifer scowled to himself, hoping that nobody noticed. She was doing this on purpose, he accused in his mind, silently fuming.
He shrugged. "I guess." Though, his thoughts trailed back to last night, the fight he had with her. He wasn't looking forward to having another one if she said something, but knowing he'd be compelled to stick up for Seifer. He gave her a look.
"I'm sorry about last night. And I just wanted to make it up to you."
"Sure.." Not seeing Seifer's face when he agreed. If he had, he would of seen hurt, jealousy, anger and hate.
"Good."
The table grew quiet, the tension very noticeable. Seifer was looking at his food, still fuming in his mind.
"Well," the hat wearing boy spoke up first. "I'm gonna go see if Squall is busy." He said this as a way to get away from the heavy tension there.
"Okay. Later, Irvine," the short blond said, nodding to him.
Seifer didn't say anything; he just nodded his head, showing he'd heard him. Irvine saw his look and shook his head. He kind of felt bad for Seifer. He knew Seifer was jealous, it was evident on his face. He walked out of this cafeteria, thinking.
"Uh, well, I'm done. Come on, Zelly. I wanna go to my room to get ready."
"Now?" he asked, quirking a brow. It wasn't even night time yet, why did she want to get ready now? "Um, isn'it kind of early?"
"No," the read head said, shrugging. "I was thinking we could go out early, then maybe later we could just hang out in my dorm." She knew Seifer was in Zell's dorm, and just wanted to keep him away from that idiot. She hated that mad, and didn't want Zell near him, so she was just making this up as she went along.
"Hmm. Sure.. why not? Not like I have anything else to do anyway. Oh, I did need to go into town today anyway. Ma said she wanted me to visit her for a while. I haven't been going over there much. He wouldn't say anything, but she had kept him mostly to herself, always by his side. It was like she wouldn't let him do anything, and it irritated him, but he had never said anything to her about it, though, not wanting to start another fight with her. All they seemed to be doing lately is fighting, and it seemed as though it was mostly over the man sitting in front of them.
"Okay," the girl said, accepting this. Well, at least she was going to spend time with him, and most of all, keep him away from Seifer longer. "That's fine, sweety. I was just thinking we could eat at that new place that just opened up."
"Fine," the blond agreed, making Seifer scowl harder. He hated this. Why was he still sitting here listening to this shit? It was only serving to make him more jealous, and make hi that more mad. Why didn't he just leave, walk away from them?
"Hey, Zell. Hey, Seifer," Squall greeted as he came up to them, but he didn't have any food. They all gave him a questioning look. "Marlene." He finally said to her, barely nodding. "Have you all seen Irvine?"
"Yeah. I have. He said he was going to go to your office," Zell said, looking confused.
"He did?" Squall asked, eyebrows raised. "Well, I haven't seen him." Squall thought about this. "Damn that cowboy." He sighed, shaking his head.
Zell chuckled. "I don't know, man. Why did ya want him for anyway?"
The lithe boy just shrugged. "Well, I just wanted to talk to him about something."
"Oh," Zell asked. "About what?"
"None of your business."
The blond pouted playfully. "Fine. Well, why don't you check his room? Or the Quad?"
"Why would he be in the Quad...? Oh, that's right, he's helping Selphie decorate for the garden festival. Fine. I'll just go look for him."
"Okay. I'll see ya later, man." Zell waved.
"Later, Squall," Seifer finally spoke up, nodding to the other man, who nodded back.
"Bye," he called back, heading out, not even saying anything to the girl.
"What do you suppose he wants with Irvine?" Seifer asked after a while, still looking in the direction where Squall left.
"I don't' know," the boxer shrugged.
"Hmm," Seifer went into thought. "Well, I'm heading off..." He looked only at Zell as he spoke, not sparing a glance the her, not even acknowledging she's there. "I'll see you later, Zell."
"Alright, man. Later." Zell waved and watched Seifer walk off, his girlfriend fuming beside him, which he didn't noticed, opting instead looking at Seifer's retreating back until he was out of eyesight. He looked at her, now seeing her look. "Marlene.. if this is how you're going to be, I don't think we should hang out tonight.'
"What..?"
"You know what? Maybe it's not such a good idea after all," he commented, now fully facing her. "I don't want to have another fight."
"I said I was sorry about that."
"I know," he sighed, rubbing his neck. "But, maybe we need sometime apart for the night? I mean, we have been spending a lot of time together, and it won't hurt.. I just wanted to be by myself tonight, really."
"Oh," she frowned, not liking this idea in the least. She thought they were doing fine. She loved spending a lot of time with him. She found nothing wrong with it. This was all that bastards fault, she seethed. She knew that he was going to stay in and be hanging out with the other blond, which made her blood boil.
"I'm sorry.. just not tonight Marlene. I'm just not really up for it. All right?" Zell sighed and ran a hand through his short, spiky hair. He knew this was a good idea, but from the look on his girlfriend's face, he could very well tell that she wasn't too thrill about it. This would do them some good, and they have been fighting an awful lot. He knew it was because they were spending too much time together. He just wanted to relax tonight.
"Fine,"she huffed.
That just made him frown. "Okay. Well, I have to get going. I'm gonna go see my ma now." He got up, giving her a small smile. "I'll see you later, Mar."
She nodded, not trusting her voice to speak at the moment, knowing that she might say something that would piss him off. She crossed her arms and leaned back, watching him until he was out her her line of sight.

Author's Notes: Well, what do you think. I had kind of struggled with the last half of this chapter. The I thought of this. I hope it's good! Oh, I think he's ready to dump her.. just can't say it yet.. It might happen soon, though.. :) Please review! Let me know what you think of this chapter.
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