Second Chances At Life

Kadaj lay numbly on the bed he shared with Cloud, it had hit him that a couple of years ago he would've just given their children away mindlessly without a fight. What kind of horrible person would I have had to be to give them away though. He thought to himself weakly Cloud was downstairs at that very moment making him something to eat. Kadaj couldn't help but think he didn't deserve to eat, he had pretty much just let a bunch of psychotic brutes take his lovely twins.

And they were so tiny too, and very so fragile my poor babies. Kadaj thought through a choked sob, his arms instinctively went around his sewn up stomach. At the moment the silver haired man just wished that the planet would just swallow him whole already. The sound of clinking dishes caught his attention, cuing Cloud to enter the room with a tray that held various foods, and something to drink.

Kadaj not having enough time to wipe off his face look up at his lover sadly, being used to this constant depression that Kadaj was setting into, Cloud sat down the tray and moved close embracing the smaller man. “Stop that, it wasn't your fault you did what was best. They're still alive and we will find them, Ukiyo and Vincent haven't stopped searching the dead zones. If they had even tried running from where they were now she would have gotten them immediately, and you know they're running out of places to look already. They'll be home soon I promise.”

Kadaj said nothing as he lay trembling in Cloud's arm, words were not enough and both of them knew it. The stress would only melt away when their children were home and safe where they needed to be. “Come now, eat something. I don't want you too weak to hold your own babies.” Cloud said leaning over the bed and picking up a tiny bowl of soup, watching as Kadaj turned his head away in rejection of the meal.

“Come love, you're going to make me cry soon too if you don't.” Cloud said the fact that his own will was slowly breaking down was showing through in his voice. Green eyes met blue eyes as they both searched each other for something. Slowly Kadaj tugged from from the other man's hands and began to eat numbly.

“Thank you, you don't know how much this means to me.” Cloud said smoothly placing his hand on the small of his love's back. Ukiyo chose that moment to appear in the room, she was looking slightly out of a breath, her pupils were dilated also.

“Has Vincent came back? I lost him a little bit ago when he went off wandering.” she said getting an odd look from Cloud while receiving no notice from Kadaj who was slowly eating.

“No, he was with you... or so we thought--” Cloud trailed off as the woman looked up in shock and suddenly disappeared again from the room as if she wasn't even here. The blonde looked over at Kadaj sadly, the boy was so lost in himself and his thoughts that hardly anything was getting through to him. Even now the older man couldn't tell if his younger lover had realized that Ukiyo had been there.

Moments later the woman reappeared, a tiny bundled blanket in her arms, another in Vincent's who collapsed once they appeared. He was bleeding terribly but it didn't seem to matter as he was smiling weakly at what he was holding. Before Kadaj could over react, Cloud took the bowl from his hands and swiftly placed a hand over the smooth lips.

“Ah, they're sleeping so please keep quiet. I don't know how though that they slept through all the gunfire.” Ukiyo said, looking tired despite being full of life energy, which showed how much strain she had went through to find the twins. Kadaj's eyes went wide with wonder as he tried with all his will power not to scream.

After he was sure his love wasn't so hysterical, Cloud let his hand drop from the silver haired man's mouth so he could move to where Ukiyo was standing to unfold the blanket that was protectively wrapped around a chubby pale body. The face was perfectly and smoothly rounded, leaving the baby to no resemblance of either parent, other than the downy soft black fuzz that was his hair.

Kadaj let out a choked laugh as he pet the soft hair of the baby, “Vincent's hair color who would've figured the genes would still effect them.” he said softly taking the child into his arms and cradling him close. Cloud stepped over to Vincent and took the bundle from the man's thin arms. This one held the fluffy looking blonde hair that Cloud held which made the man smile ever so slightly.

“They're home Cloud, they're really home.” Kadaj mumbled letting hot tears fall down his face in happiness.

“I know my love, I know.” he replied laying his head on Kadaj's shoulder and smiling.


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Four Months Later

Kadaj sighed happily as he leaned on the counter waiting for the bottles to heat on the stove, he had adapted his look to one that was child friendly. The strands that would normally hand in his face were all pulled back, with pins and clips making his hair stick back in all directions on the sides.

His close now consisted of mostly loose pajamas, so that if the babies decided it would be fun to make a mess of their 'mommy'; he could then change quickly. The sound of the buzzer dinging to the side of him broke him from his musings as he quickly turned off the stove and removed the bottles from the boiling water

After capping the bottles he tested the heat of the liquid on his wrist as he moved into the living room. Ukiyo and Yazoo were sitting to the side coddling the baby with the black hair and bright blue eyes; they opted to name him Angeal after they found out that was the soul that the baby contained.

Sephiroth and Zack sat closely with the little blonde baby in their arms, cat eyes were scanning the whole room; his name was Shiro. With a small shake of his head Kadaj handed a bottle to each 'group'. The overly tired mother then moved over to the couch and lay down sleepily on it watching his babies eat happily.

“I could've easily taken on a whole battalion of fist class SOLDIERS without even breaking a sweat, yet just two little monsters have put me in constant exhaustion.” Kadaj mumbled hearing a slight laugh from his older brother.

“Kadaj you look so cute with your hair all pinned up like that, maybe you should try it sometime Yazoo.” Ukiyo commented earning a soft smile from both men.

“Yes love.” Yazoo replied looking down at the baby he was feeding.

“So when are you gonna start being the surrogate for me and Seph's kids?” Zack asked happily a bright smile on his face.

“When your old enough to take care of children, and after that when I damn well feel like lugging around extra weight again.” Kadaj replied feeling a soft blanket being placed over his already too heavy limbs. When he opened his eyes lazily to see who it was, he smiled warmly at the sight of his blonde lover.

Placing a light kiss on the silver haired man's temple, Cloud ruffled the pinned back locks a bit. “Home love, I'm going to take a quick shower so I don't smell so bad ok?” Kadaj nodded, and before he knew it he had fallen asleep. Some odd, and untraceable amount of time later Cloud had come back down the steps dripping a bit from the shower.

With a soft smile Cloud leaned forward and shook his sleeping lover slightly, everyone had went out to play with the children to keep from waking the sleepy mother. Kadaj woke slowly and looked past Cloud, at the sight of the room's lack of small babies he began to feel slightly panicked. A hand lightly lifted his face to look into cool blue eyes, “Calm yourself love, they're just outside playing.” Cloud comforted watching as the silver haired man relaxed slowly back into the couch.

“I'm so tired Cloud, who knew this would be so hard. How do you stay up all night and still get work done?” Kadaj asked looking at his blue eyed loved in exhaustion.

“I don't know but it gets easier, it really does. Plus we can sleep in today Ukiyo and the others decided to give us a bit of a 'vacation' so to speak.” the blonde said with a bright smile as he watched Kadaj sit up quickly, recognition in his eyes as he rushed up the stairs to their bedroom.

Kadaj removed the pins from his hair and dropped them to the floor before falling onto his bed, reveling in the feel of his warm bed and the sound of silence that he hadn't had in a long time. Cloud smiled and followed suit as he curled up with his arms around Kadaj tightly both of them falling quickly to sleep.

Yazoo smiled happily as he held Angeal's small chubby hands in his own to help the infant try and walk on his own, little legs wobbled slight despite the help that was being received and the baby seemed to be concentrating hard on his feet. It was adorable, nothing short of adorable to Yazoo, who continued to smile as he let the baby fall to his diapered butt onto the ground.

“You seem like you'd be more motherly than me.” Ukiyo commented kissing the side of Yazoo's neck as he handed a small soft stuffed puppy to the baby to play with.

“Mm, maybe.” he hummed contently looking over to see Shiro launching himself from his sitting position and toward a fluffy chocobo that was in front of him. “This is as close as I'm getting to kids of my own though, not that I'm complaining though. I'm very happy this way.” Yazoo replied leaning back against the woman who so happily held him close.

“Well actually, maybe we could. It would be done like, Sephiroth and Zack, only a lot easier since it will be a baby.” she said as Yazoo leaned forward after seeing Angeal begin to yawn, he lifted the small baby into his arms and held him close staring at the tiny baby for a moment.

“I think that might be... nice.” he said after a moment looking over at Ukiyo who smiled back at him. Loz stepped into view with a look of distaste, he had parked his bike back at the house, his arms were filled with all sorts of colorful toys.

“Planning on making weird babies to wander around the house?” Loz asked, setting the toys down and handing different colored blocks to Shiro and Angeal who cooed happily hitting the ground with them.

“Your birth wasn't exactly the most normal occurrence on the planet Loz, and yes we were thinking about having a child of our own. Don't you want one with Tifa? I know you do, and since we can't have one by normal means we'll have to make another weird baby to run around the house.” Yazoo hissed glaring at his younger brother who sighed shaking his head.

“Y'know I don't mean to hurt your feelings Yazoo.” he mumbled tears welling up in his eyes as he did.

“I know but you should consider thinking before you speak Loz.” Yazoo mumbled looking down with a soft smile at Angeal who was trying to stuff a bright red block into his mouth, but wasn't succeeding to do more than gum the corner of it.

“They really are cute though.” Loz commented reaching out and touching the babies soft head.

“Well good then 'cause Angeal's, Uncle Loz can take over from here.” Yazoo announced happily with a smile before rushing off laughing, leaving his brother to stare wide eyes and with his mouth hung open at him. Ukiyo shook her head a bit before standing and following slowly.

Zack stood nervously in the kitchen fidgeting with his shirt idly as he thought of a probable reason for him to be able to go back with Sephiroth to school, one that Cloud would find acceptable. “What are you doing?” Cloud asked his voice thick from sleep, his hair was messier then usual and so were his clothes as he made his way slowly into the kitchen.

“I uh... was trying to think of a way to ask you something important.” Zack blurted hearing a noncommittal grunt in reply from the blonde man.

“Ask away.” he said flipping the switch to the coffee pot so that it would heat, before leaning against the counter with his arms crossed over his chest.

“Me and Sephiroth were thinking that maybe I could go with him when he goes back to school. I mean I wouldn't distract him from his studies and could even start some of my own if there were any open, and I could work for the money to help pay for the classes and his apartment. Please Cloud don't make me stay here and wait all alone again.” Zack said in a rush of words watching as Cloud shook his head and laughed.

“Geez, slow down next time you do need to breathe.” Cloud said pulling the coffee pot from the heating pad it was on and pouring a cup and leaving the kitchen to sit in the living room. Zack followed quickly behind his blonde guardian worriedly watching his movements to see if their was a sign of rejection or acceptance, but got nothing.

“So can I or not?” Zack asked chewing worriedly on his bottom lip.

“No.” Cloud replied sitting back heavily onto the couch and drinking his coffee slowly.

“What?! Why not?!” he yelled looking at Cloud in exasperation.

“It's not safe and you're too young.”

“I'm seventeen! Let me go, come on, please Cloud!” by this point the boy was on his knees in front of the blonde looking all too cute in his pleading.

“I said no, my word is final Zack.” Cloud replied watching as the boy glared at him with watery blue eyes before turning to rush out of the room.

“You're being too strict love.” Kadaj commented as he entered the room sitting next to the blonde and placing his head on one strong shoulder. “Nothing is going to happen to him if he goes to school with Sephiroth. Seph wouldn't let anyone lay a hand on Zack and you know it.” Kadaj spoke softly feeling his lover tense at the conversation.

“I know but, Sephiroth also doesn't have that same strength though that he had before--” Cloud began to protest before feeling a slender finger being placed over his lips to silence him quickly enough.

“I know that but he isn't completely weak either, he can protect despite what you may think. And he needs to get away from this place and find himself, he can't do that with you constantly hovering.” Kadaj reprimanded taking the coffee cup from Cloud's hands and placing it on the side table before crawling into the older man's lap and straddling his hips.

Cloud looked away as he knew 'convincing' was about to ensue, since his wicked lover always had a reserve of plots in his head in order to get his way. “Now, I can get you to agree one of two ways, I can be oh so nice, or I can be unbelievably horrible.” Kadaj said with a snicker, watching a grin curve onto Cloud's features as he thought the options over.

“Well you do know how much I love when you get horrible and spank me for being bad.” Cloud laughed watching Kadaj's face light up a bright red at the game he initiated. “I think we should take this discussion back to our bedroom love.” the blonde said with a smirk casting a seductive glance over his shoulder before bolting for the bedroom, Kadaj was hot on his heals.


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Lemon (Don't Like Don't Read)

Kadaj laughed as he bounced lightly onto the bed, Cloud was right behind him gliding smoothly onto the bed covering Kadaj's smaller frame with his own. The tiny distance placed between them by Cloud's arms on both sides of Kadaj's head holding him up was sealed with a kiss. Which was slowly heated from chaste to passionate and needy in moments.

The silver haired man arched his body off of the bed a bit to feel the sweet and hardened friction that was Cloud's body. With a smirk Cloud pulled away from the kiss and looked into the lusty darkening green eyes of his lover, as he placed his right hand on the silver haired man's flat stomach holding his body down with a firm yet gentle pressure. “For a savior you are the most evil man I have ever met.” Kadaj commented earning another grin from the blonde before he swooped down and captured his lips in another heated kiss.

Moving his body; without taking his lips off of Kadaj's; Cloud maneuvered his body so that his knee in between the other man's legs rubbing him ever so lightly, just enough to make him frustrated. Kadaj broke away from the kiss this time and growled low in his throat, “Cloud you keep teasing me like that, and I am going to hurt you and not in a good way.”

Cloud laughed, a deep throaty noise and began kissing down the younger man's jaw line, “What's wrong love? A little frustrated?” he asked nibbling the spot where Kadaj's neck and shoulder met, he was sucking just enough to leave a bruise and a bit of arousal behind.

“Yes, you wouldn't do more than blow me or jerk me off, and I am due for some serious me and you time!” Kadaj growled leaning forward biting the blonde's neck... hard. Cloud purred in response to the bite before sitting up and proceeding to pull Kadaj's shirt off, then he quickly dove in to attack one of his lover's nipples with his mouth. He spent time biting and sucking it until his was hardened to a perfect little nub.

Without further ado Cloud moved his mouth to the other repeating his teasing movements, while switching his free hand to tease the one that was already hard by flicking it. The blonde man reveled in the noises he pulled from Kadaj's throat as the smaller man writhed, moaned and even whimpered at the feel. “More Cloud, please I can't take it.” Kadaj whined pushing at the blonde head to get him to move where he wanted him to go.

“Patience love, I be inside you all too soon trust me.” Cloud replied moving still too achingly slow down Kadaj's body with nips and licks down to his belly button, dipping his tongue into the groove that it made before moving down lower to the waste of his pants.

Kadaj closed his eyes and groaned knowing the teasing wasn't going to stop as he felt the older man place both hands on his hips to still him again. “You're evil and I hate you Cloud Strife!” he hissed feeling his pants being removed in one swift motion, more light and teasing kissed were placed all along his spread thighs as Cloud purposely avoided going near Kadaj's arousal.

“Mm, being evil feels so nice though. I don't know why I ever played 'hero' if I could've been doing this all along now wonder the aspect is so pleasing to people.” Cloud replied jokingly, as he sat up with one hand still hooked under Kadaj's knee pushing it upward. The other hand that had been supporting the other creamy limb was now reaching for in the bedside table for the bottle of lube that he knew was there.

Grinning in triumph as he found it, Cloud grinned while snapping open the bottle with his thumb, the silver haired man laying out before him watched with half lidded eyes. Placing the leg that was in his hand over his shoulder, Cloud spread the cool, slippery liquid on his fingers to begin preparing his lover for better things to come.

Kadaj being the impatient person that he was squirmed under the treatment as the blonde repeatedly missed the spot that would drive his uke mad. After the agonizingly slow stretching a generous amount of lube was spread over Cloud's thick length, making the blue eyed man hiss as the cold of the lube hit the heat of his cock.

Slowly he pushed himself into his silver haired lovers entrance, while lifting the other leg to rest on his other shoulder. Once fully seated inside Kadaj, Cloud stilled not trusting himself not to cum immediately from his own sexual deprivation. Although the movements couldn't be delayed for long seeing as Kadaj drew back a bit before pushing himself back on Cloud, making both of them release throaty groans.

So throwing with no hesitance left, Cloud began to move, slowly at first then quicker as their needs built. Orgasms quickly ensued as Kadaj's hands tightened on the only thing he could reach at the moment which were the sheets, his back arched and his entrance tightened painfully so around Cloud as ribbons of his creamy white bliss spilled over his stomach. Not wanting to risk another pregnancy so soon Cloud pulled out of his tiny lover, mixing their seeds on his stomach.

With a happy sigh Cloud moved beside Kadaj, kissing the younger man's temple lovingly in post orgasmic bliss still rolling around his mind. “Mm, sleepy.” he mumbled feeling Kadaj laugh from beside him agreeing with the feeling.

“We should get cleaned up first love.” the silver haired man replied running his hand over the cum on his stomach before lifting it to his mouth and licking it clean.

“Stop that, you have no clue how sexy that looks and I'm not ready to go another round just yet.” Cloud said lazily throwing his arm over Kadaj and pulling him close.

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A/N

Alright alright, I am so excited and I don't know why... but! I want to know what you think and review and all that good junk ok. Don't be jerks, cause you know you so want to review my story. Come on... you can do it! Yes you can! Oh yes you can!