The Reason

The Reason

Disclaimer: I do not own Final Fantasy 7. All characters here belong to Square Enix

I miss him. Yeah, I really miss him. I want to see him. I want to touch him.
“Kadaj!” suddenly a very familiar voice break his daydream.
That was Loz who call him. He doesn’t like if someone interrupt him when he want to be alone, but Loz look at him seriously so he guess that there’s something important.
“I’m going to Midgard today. I heard some clue about mother. Do you want to come with me? Yazoo will be here to stay in our base anyway.”
Kadaj shake his head, “I think I’ll stay here. I’m not feeling well today.”
“Ok then. See you later, brother.” Loz wave his hand childishly.
“Phew…”
Kadaj feel glad that he’s alone now. All that he wants to do now is recalling his memory about Sephiroth. Remembering how they were spent everyday together, how Sephiroth call him, how he felt his kiss… He really misses Sephiroth, and would do anything to bring Sephiroth back. Searching for mother is just one of his plans. But he knows, even if he could get mother, Sephiroth still needs new body. And for Sephiroth, Kadaj will sacrifice his body for his lovers… It doesn’t matter, as long as Sephiroth is happy, he’ll be happy too. Suddenly he cries. Maybe it’s the 100th time he realize he cannot met Sephiroth anymore.
“Damn. I really want you to hold me now…” said Kadaj painfully.

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In front of their tent, Yazoo sits next to the fire to warm his body. Its dawn already and he wondering why Kadaj haven’t back from the river.
“I’ll wait for ten minutes. If he still hasn’t back, I’ll find him.”
Not like Loz who follow Kadaj because he wants to meet mother, Yazoo come with them because he fall in love with Kadaj… Far before Sephiroth come and take Kadaj away from him. But Yazoo knows that he can’t match Sephiroth. He’s just a clone of Sephiroth and Sephiroth seems like to have anything everyone wants. Yazoo understands why Kadaj really fall to that silver haired man.
Yazoo shake his head slowly, “Sigh… I envy you Sephiroth.”
“But I know… I can’t match you. You’re just too perfect for Kadaj.”
And he wonders… Does Kadaj know that he love him? Looking from how he treat Kadaj, how he really want to protect him, love him, care about him… Everyone would know that Yazoo loves Kadaj.
“It’s already 15 minutes. Maybe I must check.”
It’s already dark, so he brings a torch to light the way. When he reaches the side of the river, he can see that the younger boy who sits in front of him is crying.
“Kadaj…”
“Oh, Yazoo… How long have you been there?” Kadaj swipe his tears fast. Hope Yazoo can’t see it.
“You’re crying…”
“No, I’m not.”
“Yes, you are! Do you think about him again? About Sephiroth?”
“Haha… yeah, I was thinking about him. Don’t know why I love him so much. Don’t know how he makes me crazy for missing him…”
“Then… What about me?”
“Yazoo?” Kadaj sense something wrong with his brother.
“What about me who always be with you, always love you, always thinking about you, and always care about you?!”
“What do you mean Yazoo? I don’t understand!” Kadaj get shocked, hearing such confession from his brother.
“I love you, Kadaj!!!! Why that you never realized about it? Even the stupid crybaby Loz knows about that!” Yazoo screams and makes his younger brother step back from him.
Suddenly he kisses his younger brother, releasing his secret desire. Kadaj petrified of this unexpected moment but then he got his consciousness and pushes the older man and run away.
“Kadaj!!!”


Ok, here’s my very first fan fiction!
Oh yeah, before you tell me, I know that Kadaj never met Sephiroth, but I want to make them as lover, so… This is it! =D
I’ll make the rest later, so please give ratings and reviews for this fics! ^_^ Thanks!