Those rare words

my secret Santa exchange for LilyU23 merry Christmas^^


i owe a great thanks to xiaa who beta'd this for me^^
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Cloud was far from being a party person that being the reason why he decided to hide away somewhere he could be alone. And work on Fenrir without interruptions since he shut his cell phone off. He did not understand why Tifa was having a party in the first place but he did not plan on going. Instead he was going to enjoy working on his bike.

Fenrir did not need work he just always enjoyed tuning her-- yes Fenrir was a she-- up or waxing her. She was his baby, his second love.

His first love on the other hand...

His first love was out traveling the world with other SOLDIERs. It was one of the reasons they broke up. Cloud wanted him to live his life and enjoy it. Memories of them together still haunted Cloud, while he was playing the role of delivery boy.

He enjoyed taking on the longer deliveries the most. They gave him an excuse to leave for days at a time, and a reason to not answer his phone for a while. All he had to do was drive, feel the wind, and enjoy the fact that he didn’t have to think of anything. Especially not of what a mistake it was to let Zack go ...

No. He wouldn’t regret what he did. He wouldn’t think about how much he missed Zack. Not now.

Cloud stood and pulled off his shirt to wipe the sweat from his face, and tossed it aside. He could do what he wanted here and not have to worry about being found. Only one other person knew where Cloud’s secret garage was, but he was off who-knows-where, exploring and enjoying his life as a SOLDIER. Ever since Rufus took over the Shinra Company, they were actually trying to do some sort of good. Cloud no longer cared. It was too hard to care for anything for that matter at least anymore, since /he/ wasn’t here anymore...

Cloud grabbed the black container of wax and the used rag, a small smile gracing his lips. Putting on a fresh coat of wax on Fenrir increased the shine of the jet-black paint—yes, taking care of Fenrir always calmed him—stopped him from thinking too much...

"I haven’t seen that smile in years. I’ve missed it."

Cloud's eyes widened briefly as he stood wordless. He saw long black unruly spikes for hair, a tall toned body, a cheesy grin, and a long sword strapped to his back, it was... but why? "Zack …"

He couldn’t decide between "Welcome home, I missed you.” or “How have you been?” as Zack moved forward running his fingers across the black leather on the seat of Fenrir,

"It’s gorgeous how about taking me for a ride on him. The least you could do after that break up letter right?" Zack needed something to keep Cloud from fleeing at the slightest movement.

"Her."

"What?" Zack looked up confused Cloud’s eyes traveling along his bike, "Fenrir is a she."

Zack grinned, "Oh, my apologies. I mean, how about you take me for a ride on /her./ You know I won’t leave until you do." Not that he planned on leaving period, but he wasn’t going to mention that.

Cloud did not say anything as he moved quietly grabbing his blue sleeveless shirt and slipping it back on, not seeing the look of longing on Zack’s face. And without a word Cloud climbed onto the bike giving a small nod to Zack who walked to open the garage door.

Before moving to climb on the bike, Zack tightly wrapped his arms around the blond’s waist noting the slight shudder that shot through the blond’s body.

/So Cloud still wanted him/ he thought. He knew that Cloud wanted him to live happily, but he just didn’t realize that Zack needed him to do so.

The motor roared as the bike sped out, Cloud took his usual route to his favorite place where he could see the night stars perfectly, a place he’d never been able to share with anyone. It seemed right to share his special places with the person behind him, squeezing his body tightly breathing in his scent. It gave Cloud a familiar and long missed spark racing up his spine causing him to swerve a bit too hard on one of the curves. His body tensed slightly.

The break up was one-sided, but it was always like that. Cloud would end it, Zack would come home and reclaim him without any kind of struggle from Cloud and then he would be off again and Cloud would be left to his thoughts and memories.

"Why weren’t you at my welcome home party?" the man’s voice brought him from his thoughts, as Cloud avoided the urge to let his eyes slip shut, the other man’s hot breath ghosted over his ear.

He simply responded by shrugging the best he could, to be honest he didn’t even know about the party. He just knew that after the mere mention of a party he tuned out all other words that came from Tifa's mouth.

"You know I missed you a lot. I came back so we can spend more time together... so we can be together again."

Cloud went with not responding as Fenrir slowed down finally coming to a complete stop, using one foot to put the kick stand down he stared down at the hands around him, "When are you going out again?" When would this start all over again? When would he get tired of being lonely again, and end things with Zack?

Zack chuckled, "I’m not, I’m a mercenary now, and I’m now going into the delivery business. Turns out the one in Tifa's bar is looking for another driver, I just need to get my hands on some wheels." Zack paused briefly before continuing, "So now there’s no reason to dump me anymore right? You should know I’ll never give up. So please don’t tell me it’s still over."

Cloud looked over his shoulder slightly. How was he supposed to tell him that he could never break up completely with Zack in the first place? Didn’t he notice that after he broke it off, he still wrote Zack almost every day? "Fine... " he muttered. Although he had many doubts he always did, but he let a small smile slip out because he knew Zack never gave up on anything especially when it came to them so denying him would be a waste of time and energy.

"I’m glad." The brunet haired man smile turned into a full-blown grin as he unhooked his sword and its sheath letting it fall to the ground, as he pulled at the straps off before nuzzling his face into the blond’s neck. Running his fingers through blond spikes as his other hand moved to pull both of Cloud’s hands behind his back meeting no resistance, "Please say it, Cloud I want to hear it."

Cloud looked up seeing the night sky and a soft sigh escaped, "I... Zack... "

Zack smiled as he tied off the man’s hands. Those words were always hard for Cloud to say, but it was ok. "I love you too Cloud. That’s why I wont ever leave you." That’s why Zack always came home. He could never lose Cloud. He didn’t even know why it took him three years and several good bye letters for him to realize where he was supposed to be, and where he needed and wanted to be. That was here with the man leaning against him.

"I..." Zack stopped Cloud clasping a hand over the man’s mouth.

"No excuses. I won’t change my mind so you don’t have to say anything, ok?"

Cloud breathed a heavy sigh slowly nodding his head. Not caring that Zack had his hands tied together behind his back. He knew there was no reason to worry. He never did when it came to Zack. But his mind could never stay focused when Zack was here. But Cloud always knew that what he wanted most was Zack. He never really understood it, but he knew as long as Zack always came back to him the haze over his heart and mind would always disappear.

Maybe it was selfish, maybe he hoped every time he broke up with Zack that this would happen, that Zack would come running home...

“Good.” Zack let his hand fall to Cloud’s lap slowly flatting his palm and then dragging it up. He could feel the slight quiver in the lithe body through his shirt. Oh, how he truly missed this touching, smelling, loving he missed it all. He missed Cloud so much he was starting to wonder why he ever left in the first place, why he kept leaving...

"You missed me to right?" he knew Cloud did; but sometimes the words were needed. He knew with Cloud the words were rare and the blond always had problems with opening up it was just one of many things that Zack came to understand and love about Cloud.

"I missed you... "

"Cloud." Zack smiled, he finally said it. It always made Zack happy to hear it.

"And I love you... maybe too much... "

Zack’s eyes softened at the rare words. He’d only ever heard them once before, but... "There’s no such thing as too much, Cloud.”

Cloud smiled, as he nodded. Deep down, somewhere, he knew the man was right.” Welcome home Zack.”

Zack grinned,” it’s good to be home.”

Cloud looked back up at the sky, “I found this place last year. After you left.”

“Hm, it’s nice.” Zack did enjoy the view but he was more focused on the one in his arms the night sky.

“If you untie me, we can go back and talk.” Should he apologize? He should try to explain how he was feeling. Not like he hadn’t tried, it was too hard to put his feeling or thoughts into actual words.

“There’s nothing to talk about.” Zack grinned, nuzzling his face into the lightly colored neck. He breathed in the scent that solely belonged to Cloud it was addicting, it was just another thing he missed.

Cloud sighed and rested his head against the brunet’s shoulder. He should have known no matter what happened, that Zack always seemed to understand. He needed to remember to be more grateful for it...

Cloud’s eyes slipped shut when he felt Zack’s tongue lapping at the sensitive flesh of his neck. That same hot mouth worked up his neck and nipped softly at his ear

"I’ve been wanting to touch you since the day I left." It was true. He thought about Cloud every day, every night.

Cloud let a small moan escape when Zack rolled a pink nipple between his thumb and index finger. His other hand fell to the front of Cloud’s pants, rolling the button between his fingers. "Lift your hips for me."

Cloud nodded propping himself up it had been so long, yet just the few simple touches already had him reacting. A familiar fire burned throughout his body. He was glad he was facing away from Zack, because it hid the light pink hue that spread across his face when his pants and briefs were lowered around his knees. Larger hands began massaging his hips gently.

The brunet brought his hands back up turning the blond over to press their lips together, and Cloud parted his lips in response to give more access. His body was already anticipating the kiss deepening and a small groan of appreciation escaped when it finally happened.

Zack groaned when the blond kissed back, pushing himself further back into the man as he did. His bottoms slipped off with the help of Zack's hands.

"Zack." Cloud broke the kiss gasping when he felt one of the man’s hands wrapped around his already half hard cock and stroking him till he was fully erect and panting.

Zack smiled. "Please don’t hold anything back Cloud. I need to hear your voice."

Cloud couldn’t protest, he never could, and the faster the hand moved the louder the whimpers and groans got. Zack's other hand moved to fish out the lube out of his pocket. It being his welcome home gift from Tifa she must have known that as soon as he had an opening he would leave.

"On Fenrir?” Cloud gasped, as Zack bent them over,

“It's better then the ground right?"

Cloud just wasn’t sure. While idea turned him on—not that he would admit that—it was just."I-I just waxed her."

Zack laughed softly, not saying anything as he pulled back placing gentle kisses along Cloud’s upper back.

It wasn’t direct skin contact, but it felt nice regardless. He found himself using his teeth to pull up the blond’s shirt, so he could fully taste the flesh underneath.

All of Cloud’s thoughts started to disappear. When he felt the first slick finger probing his entrance, teeth gently ranking down his back, he found himself laying completely flat against Fenrir. Small hums of approval escaping. The cool leather hard against his body and the fiery touches from Zack were slowly driving him mad, but it was always like this. Only Zack could bring him so close to the edge and drive him nearly insane with something so simple as kissing along his back and well...

“Ahh... ” Cloud gripped as the metal of the bike as Zack began stimulating his prostate. He forgot what it felt like having Zack inside of him. It always felt good. Even when there should be pain, there wasn’t. Just the mere thought of the brunet touching him was enough to replace all pain with a burning pleasure. And he was sure it was only something Zack could do.

“Does that feel good?” the brunet whispered pushing in another finger, he loved every sound Cloud made. It always gave him some satisfaction just knowing he was the one causing the man to be vocal. He smiled when Cloud nodded his head.

He loved watching Cloud writhe with pleasure, the way his back arched into every caress, and the way he moaned with every touch. Zack loved it all, Every part of the him.

“I don’t think I can take anymore just do it, Zack!” Zack’s eyes widened, he was about to protest. He just started stretching Cloud, ... but the next words killed any protests he had.

“Zack I need it.” It was true he needed it, he needed Zack to claim him again.

Zack swallowed a lump in his throat. This was new of Cloud, but he liked it. Nodding his head Zack made quick work of pulling his pants down, not wasting any time as he squirted more then the necessary amount of lube onto his fingers and groaning softly as he gave himself a few harsh stokes, wanting to grant Cloud’s request. Gods only knew he needed it too.

Zack gently pulled Cloud back slowly sheathing himself inside. Even if they both needed it, he didn’t want to rush into things and hurt Cloud.

Every sharp gasp from Cloud had Zack stilling his movements waiting for the mans breathing to calm down before pulling out and inching back in.

Though he was usually impatient, sex with Cloud made him more patient then anything else, he loved Cloud so much he always wanted to take it slow with the man just so he could savor the feel of it; how tight Cloud was, how hot he was, how he perfectly wrapped around Zack, squeezing him almost painfully tight as he felt himself being drawn in more wanting to go deeper to claim every inch, inside and out.

Cloud groaned when Zack fully sheathed himself. The brunet running his hands over the mans back in a soothing manner, small kisses and nips along a smooth neck.

He waited for Cloud to adjust so he could move. He always knew when the blond was ready to climax when he started clenching around him like he was now. Zack learned after so long that was Cloud’s way of asking him to move. But he didn’t want to just yet. It had been so long, and he would come too quickly if he didn’t take a minute and try to control himself. Instead he made it worse all the lewd thoughts he had from the heat coming from Cloud.

Zack lowered his hands to the younger man’s hips, lifting them slightly. Zack pulled out a little and pushed back in an inch or so at a time until he was pulling completely out and thrusting in. Moaning in sync with Cloud. He had almost had forgotten how good it felt to be Cloud’s lover.

Cloud raised his hips enough to push back, meeting Zack’s thrusts. His mind completely going blank. He had forgotten how good this felt. How his mind would go blank and all he could do was feel and melt into the pleasure

Zack groaned when the blond started meeting his thrusts his heart speed up and his thrusts quickened when his name was cried from oh, so perfectly off pinkish lips.

“Cloud... ” Zack groaned and unconsciously tightened his grip, driving in faster and deeper.

“Ahh, Zack...!” Cloud shuddered, trying to use body language to tell Zack what he wanted by pushing his hips back faster trapping his leaking cock between his body and the leather seat. It almost hurt but the simulation was what he wanted.

Zack lifted Cloud’s hips higher gaining a whimper at the loss of friction, but moved his legs so he could lift Cloud onto his lap, using the peddles to support himself as Cloud flattened his hands against the seat to hold himself up. Zack was rewarded with a loud moan when he wrapped a hand around the rigid length.

Zack used his other hand to help guide the mans hips up and down. Cloud’s hands clawed at the toned stomach before tightly gripping the man’s shirt. The pleasure started building up in the pit of his stomach, only caused the blond to move faster whenever his hips came back down on the pulsating length, and he would rock his hips slightly and moan louder.

Zack let out a small growl as he moved his hand from Cloud’s cock to his hip. Both men panting harshly into the night air. Zack hummed in approval when Cloud’s hand moved to finish the job that Zack’s started.

A few obscenities spilled from Zack’s mouth as Cloud clenched and unclenched around him. His name came out in heavy pants and cries as Zack attempted to thrust faster at slight change of angle from his hips. He smiled as Cloud head bucked against his shoulder, The blond’s body tensed and shook slightly, and a loud cry of his name as Cloud’s come splattered over his hands and stomach. Some even dripped on the black leather.

Zack moaned, thrusting in one last time as he came hard inside the blond. The feel of Cloud’s body milked him for every last drop and didn’t want to let him go. He panted hard, enjoying the bliss of their orgasms, but he was not done yet. He had three years of missed touches to make up for, and he planned on sucking up to the blond all night tonight and every night. The times he did come back didn’t count.

Zack smiled, freeing Cloud’s arms as he pulled him into a tight hug, “Let’s go home for a shower.” Zack purred, Cloud’s deliveries services would have to be put on hold for a while. He had no intentions of letting him leaving their house, mainly the bedroom anytime soon.