Unforgotten Memories

BY : Crymson_Passion
Category: Final Fantasy VIII > General
Dragon prints: 553
Disclaimer: I do not own Final Fantasy VIII, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Unforgotten Memories


Chapter One
Honey and blueberries. To this day, if I concentrate hard enough, I can still taste it playing on my lips. I never understood why the Guardian Forces left that memory so complete and intact, despite it being from so long ago. Shiva, Ifrit, Leviathan, and Bahamut have all passed through my mind, not one of them attacking that memory. Even when I started to junction at such a young age, eleven to be exact, the Guardians ate up all my other memories, but the memory of my first kiss was always there to be recalled, whether or not I wanted it to be. The same principle applies to the first person to become my boyfriend. The memory housed in my mind that I am the least fond of. It happened less than two months after I started to junction for training, Shiva making herself at home in my mind. I often wonder that if I had refused the help of the Guardians, if anything would have turned out any different.


“Hey, Koneko. Wait up!” I heard his voice call out behind me. Not wanting to face him at the moment, I pretended that his calls were lost to the crowds that were always present in the hallways of Balamb Garden. Quickly, I continued my journey towards the dormitory hallway. But there was only one problem. He was taller than me, which meant he had longer legs, and could easily catch up to me. Letting out a sigh, I turned around, accepting my fate of having to see him right now.

“What do you want?” I grumbled. I really didn’t want to talk to anyone, and he continued to sit at the bottom of the list of people I could tolerate at that moment.

“You seemed pretty pissed off back there. I just wanted to make sure that you were okay, Koneko.” He explained, being a completely different person when it was just the two of us, away from the prying eyes of the rest of the world.

“Stop calling me that!” the words left my lips in a harsh manner, and I momentarily hoped that he didn’t catch the tone in which I had used. Unfortunately the stricken look of shock on his face was enough to tell me that he definitely caught the tone of my voice.

“I’ve been calling you that for five years and you’ve never had a problem with it before. What’s crawled up your ass and died? You’ve been nasty ever since we had that first junction class. I thought I was supposed to be your boyfriend, Koneko.”

I froze as his hand slid to my upper arm and squeezed it gently.

“Bo... boyfriend?” I stuttered, pulling my arm away from his stronger than average grip. He must still have had Ifrit junctioned from his training session earlier. I knew that he wasn’t that strong naturally. “What do you mean, you’re my boyfriend?”

“Stop fooling around, Koneko.” His eyes showed the one emotion that rarely, if ever, passed over his features.


Frantically, I pulled my arm out of his grasp and without so much as another word, or look, I stormed off in the direction that I was previously heading in, toward the dormitories. I just needed to get away from him. All this time, he considered himself to be my boyfriend, but did he ever wonder how I would react to that? A thought hit me, and I stopped dead in my tracks, right in the middle of the busy hallway.

Or, maybe he shouldn’t have had to consult me on that. Maybe I was the foolish one for not realizing that we had progressed into that stage in our relationship. To think, that I had never actually clued in on the fact, that we were that far along was the most hurtful, no, the most embarrassing part.

Upon reaching my shared dorm, I punched in my access code quickly, praying that my roommate wasn’t there. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I hated my roommate. I just preferred the times when there was no one else there, and I was able to sit in the peace and quite, and think to myself with no interruptions. Without hesitation, I stepped in and took a look around.

Empty. And Quiet.

Great. At least I had a little time to myself to think over this new revelation in peace. I made my way through the common room, ignoring the slight mess that I had been left with, courtesy of my roommate, and I headed into my bedroom. Falling face up onto my standard issue bed, I started to immediately think over the situation at hand.

My boyfriend? Was I really so blind that I hadn’t noticed that much progression in our relationship? I mean, we would kiss every once in a while, but he claimed it was so that when we met that ‘special someone’, we’d have had a little bit of practice. But doing that didn’t make us a couple, did it? We trained together all the time, even though it was just basic unarmed combat, but that’s only because we were able to play off each others skills and abilities really well. Nothing about that signifies that we had become a couple, did it?

The more I thought this over, the more the sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach swelled. Spending most of our free time together, training together, the small touches, the close contact, the occasional kisses, it all pointed to the same verdict.

He was definitely, without a doubt in my mind, my boyfriend.

Now I was actually a bit curious. How long had we been together without me knowing? Had it only been weeks, or maybe months? Or, Hyne help me, could this have actually been going on for years without my knowledge?

Hyne, that thought scared me more than I could ever imagine, or even care to admit. Could we have really been a couple for that long and I just didn’t notice? We had just known each other for so long that everything just seemed kind of natural. Starting out at the orphanage together, with all those other kids, what were their names again? Come to think of it, I couldn’t remember much about it except that I was there with him, near the ocean, and I told him that if we ever got separated, he’d be the only thing that I would ever miss.

Sighing again, I rolled over onto my right side, so that my back is towards the cream colored wall. For some reason, I just wanted to be able to watch the door. Deciding that I will accept that fact that I do indeed have a boyfriend, I took a deep breath and tried to figure out what I should do. Obviously I have hurt him, but how could I make it up to him? Maybe he thought that we had broken up. Did I want that instead? Did I really want to lose what we had? After a little bit of thought, I decided that I indeed wanted to continue going out with him. I prepared myself to get up off my bed, to go find him, a little afraid of the state that I may find him in. I could almost perfectly picture the disappointment that was on his features as I left him in the hallway. That was the first time I had really ever seen him hurt emotionally, and I didn’t think that I could handle seeing that again.

“Are you in there?” a quite voice came from the direction of the door, and it startled me slightly. I should have expected him to come quickly, and I knew that I was going to have to face him eventually. He didn’t wait for a reply before he punched in my code, the door sliding open. “So, this is where you’ve been hiding.”

“I’m not hiding.” Was the only thing that came out of my mouth, as I looked over at him as he stood in my doorway, causally leaning against the frame as if everything was still the same between us. But I guess, in a way, it was.

“I know you’re embarrassed. I guess I never really asked you. I just assumed that you saw our relationship on the same level as I did.” He spoke in a quite tone, not quite whispering, but not yelling at me like I thought he would. He slowly started to move, and he crossed the small dorm room before he sat down beside me on the small bed. I didn’t even think about it before I moved my head so that it was lying on his lap as if it was the most natural thing in the world, but for us, it actually was.

“I did.” I admitted. “I just wasn’t ready to admit it out loud, for anyone to hear.” My voice was quite, and I closed my eyes as he began to run his gloved hand through my hair. I have always loved it when he did that. I felt a blush rise on my face before I asked him my next question. “So, how long have we actually been, you know, a couple?”

“Well, Koneko. I think that we should start over.” As soon as I heard the words leave his mouth, I shot up into a sitting position. This was it. Before I even get to experience having him as my boyfriend, he was breaking up with me.

“What do you mean, start over?” I could almost feel my heart breaking at his words, and I started to panic, that I had only been there when it was convenient for him. And now that I was aware of his intent, he was going to leave me. I almost began to hyperventilate, before his hands clamped down on my shoulders.

“Don’t worry, Koneko. We’ll just say that today is our first day together. Nothing different.” He whispered in my ear, causing a chill to rush down my spine. I turned to face him, and his lips were on mine immediately. I don’t know what it was about that simple action, but it made me feel whole, and complete. To put it in one word, his kisses always make me melt. I hoped I would never have to go without those honey flavored kisses.

“Don’t leave me, ever.” I whispered before I realized I had even said anything.

“I’m not going anywhere, I promise.” He spoke quietly into my hair as he cuddled me closer onto his lap.

I closed my eyes and allowed myself to get lost in my thoughts for a moment. I was going to be twelve in a couple of months, that making me one year closer to becoming a SeeD. As soon as I turned twelve, I officially became a junior cadet, and I had a boyfriend.

Boyfriend. My lips broke into a small smile when I thought of that, despite the happenings of the past hour. The only person in my life that has always been there for me, the only one who has ever kept his promises, the only one who has never left me alone. He’s mine. Only mine. I never had to share him again. My boyfriend.

“What are you sitting there grinning like a geezard for?” he asked, ruffling my hair. Hyne, his hands felt so good going through my hair.

“Just how we are a couple. How I never have to share you again, and that you are my boyfriend and only mine.” I smiled.

“And I will be only yours forever. I swear. As long as you promise that you will always be mine.” He looked at me with a rare emotion passing over his eyes and face. Hope. And I just couldn’t help but feel the same.

“I promise.” I replied, before I leaned in for a kiss.

And here’s another instalment! Anyone have any idea who the pairing might be? Email me or review, tell me who you think it is and you get cookies! Nice warm meltey ones…fresh out of the oven. Yummy! Anyway, until next time!

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