The Problem With The Truth | By : Chococat Category: Final Fantasy Anime > AU - Alternate Universe Views: 691 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1 |
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This is a very long chapter but I couldn't find a way to break it up.
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The next morning the twins woke her as usual. She stretched, pressing against the warm body behind her. The arm around her tightened then released her as he got up. He gave her one baby then the other before going out to wake the children. She showered and got the twins ready. Barret tackled Ether and his wiggly self while Cloud dressed Mirage. He was gentle with his daughter, smiling sweetly at her while he put her shirt on. Her heart thumped painfully before she looked away.
Then it was off to the tavern. This became the new routine for the rest of festival season. While she wasn’t happy he was ensconced in her bed he was behaving. He didn’t try to make moves on her or anything. He also kept his clothes on.
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When festival season was over Barrett began looking for work in earnest. The tavern crowd had gone back to normal levels so they weren’t needed. Her seasonal workers had left with a hefty bonus. Business had been fabulous. Cloud stayed on as help and he watched the children when needed. The plan was Barrett was to do the footwork and he’d do the follow through.
There were also meetings with Yuffie at night about the business proposal. These were coming along nicely. Getting ready for bed was a family affair. Everyone was asleep by nine o’clock for the most part, the children by seven thirty. She fed them after school then again at while she prepped for the next day. Their days were long so they went to bed as soon as they got home.
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Tifa woke up in the middle of the night and stripped. Tonight was hot and humid and so was she. Tossing her clothes to the floor she laid on top of the covers and moaned. Ever since she gave birth to Ether she had these cycles of heat. Both of her doctors had said it was her body signifying it was fertile. She’d spent many a night masturbating for relief. Normally she did it in the bathroom. Her showerhead was her go to.
“What’s the matter?” Cloud’s voice was very deep from sleep.
“Nothing.”
“It doesn’t smell like nothing.”
She turned to her side with a grunt.
“Tifa.” His voice sounded much clearer now. She rolled her eyes but kept quiet, squeezing her legs together. Whatever he was going to say was forestalled by one of the twins crying. She got up and lifted Stellia, smiling at Sillia, who was staring at her, but silent for the moment. After feeding and getting the twins settled she went back to bed.
Now the feeling was worse. Breastfeeding made her uterus clench which made her pussy clench in turn. She wanted to rub one out but idiot was behind her.
“If you need to crack off go ahead. You’ll get some relief and we’ll both go back to sleep.”
“You can go to sleep now.”
“I can’t because your pussy is smelling like it needs to be pounded.”
Those words sent a shiver down her spine. “You lie.”
Before she knew what he was about she was beneath him. He lowered himself on top of her. “Listen and do it well.” His hard on pressed against her womanly entrance. “I am no little boy. I’m a grown ass man so watch what you say to me.” He started humping her, his cloth covered head rocking against her clit. “I know why yo0u feel this way.”
She blinked up at him, trying to concentrate. He was a welcome weight and his hips were moving at a nice pace. The only problem was it was Cloud. “You do?” Why was her voice so breathless?
“It’s my sperm. The mako in it changed you when you got pregnant. My wife suffered the same ailment.” His head pressed a little bit into her before he started humping again.
She rolled her hips up to meet his thrusts. She wanted to push down his pants so bad but that’s what got her into this predicament in the first place. His eyes were glowing as he stared down at her. It was like he could see into her soul. Her body tightened up as he continued to rub against her in a controlled motion.
It felt so clinical the way he manipulated her body. There was no kissing, no touching, just stimulation. As she thought that her body pulsed with her climax, making her hips buck against his. He watched her with no expression on his face. When it finally finished she sighed and yawned. That had been a good one. He didn’t move but stayed on top of her until she fell asleep.
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The next morning she woke up in his arms. She was laying on some part of him and her legs were tangled with his. She stretched, her body arching as her chest pressing against his. She blinked. He wore no shirt although she was sure he’d had one on last night. Then again it had been hot in here.
He groaned and his arms tightened around her as he ground against her, his penis hard as a rock. That was covered and she kept still as his hips worked against hers. His head bumped her mons for a bit then he stopped and let her go. He got up, heading to the bathroom and she sighed. That had been close. She’d been ready to pull his shorts down and let him have her.
She shook her head to clear it of stupid thoughts. She’d already played his fool, she wasn’t going to do it again. He was in mourning and she available. The day passed by like normal, neither one of them acknowledging what had happened. There was no awkwardness which was cool but why would there be? Collectively they’d spent a good chunk of their lives together. Be it fighting or having sex they’d experienced a lot together and nothing would ever change that.
She huffed and put it to the back of her mind. She had things to do in this life that didn’t include moping over Cloud Strife. When they got home she made sure to masturbate in the shower before going to bed. Everything was fine until she woke up to feed the twins. Her body was hot again. He said nothing but laid her on her back and rocked against her. This time he’d taken off his shorts but kept on his shirt. He buried his face in her neck. When she came he sighed but didn’t do anything else. She fell asleep beneath him peacefully.
This went on for the next five nights. Looking at her calendar Tifa saw that today was the last day of her cycle. Thank goodness! It was getting hard to resist him. Her body was demanding she be filled but she wasn’t listening to it like she hadn’t for the almost three years before. It didn’t matter that he was attuned to her and packing heavy. Nor did it matter that he was next to her in bed just waiting to be debauched.
He slid by her in the small space, his crotch against her ass. Her eyebrows went up. Was he hard? She wasn’t sure but they were near the end of the breakfast rush so she focused on something else. A little while later she was in the storage room reaching for the paper towels which somebody had put hella high when he stepped behind to help her. His cock was hard against her ass as he pulled it down. He placed two rolls in her hands.
His deep voice was soft in her ear when he spoke. “Is there anything else I can assist you with?”
She couldn’t hide the shiver, which he acknowledged with a press of his body against hers. “N-no, thank you.”
“Okay.” He stepped back and left.
Tifa leaned against the shelf. What was that?
She was hyperaware of him for the rest of the day although she thought she did well in hiding it. He didn’t attempt anything else and she called herself stupid. He’d been being helpful, nothing else. Going to bed was a little difficult though. She was so aroused she was creaming herself. The shower hadn’t done it’s trick either. She was horny as hell. Her bra top and miniskirt pjs felt rough and scratchy. She kept them on though. She tried to go to sleep but no such luck. She shifted, trying to find a comfortable spot again when he sighed.
“Tifa, mount me.”
She froze. “What?” She made the mistake of turning to look at him.
“Climb on top of me and take your pleasure.” He shifted, pushing aside the covers. She watched as he slid his shorts down so that his cock bounced free.
“I don’t want to.” She had to admit she sounded rather petulant.
He sighed the sigh of the damned. “Tifa, I can’t go to sleep with you projecting like that. Either you mount me or I mount you.” His voice went a little dark at the end. “I’m taking you if I do.”
Hearing the seriousness in his tone she opted to mount him. She climbed on him, sitting on his cock. It lay against his belly thick and hot. She could feel the blood pulsing through it. He put his hands behind his head and looked at her expectantly. The light from the television was bright in the darkness. Shifting her skirt up she settled herself on him, spreading her lips so the heart of her was on him. He moaned deep in his throat but didn’t move otherwise.
She began rocking on him, sliding her wet cunt up and down his shaft. He shuddered but let her have her way. She licked her lips as the delicious feeling traveled through her. He was letting her use his body to reach climax. It wouldn’t take much because she was halfway there already.
His hips rolled and his cockhead bumped her clit. She hissed but shifted her hips so he could do it again. Over and over his head hit the right spot. She moved up a little so that she was sitting on his head, grinding it into his belly. His hands slid up her thighs and gripped them as he pushed up. Her orgasm was creeping closer but she needed a little more. She lay on him and rolled her hips. He pulled back then pressed forward and his head slid over her entrance. She kept rotating her hips in circles while his head teased her. Wanting more she angled her hips and his tip almost slid in.
His hands gripped her tightly as he pressed against her. With concentrated effort his tip was poking her, gently delving into her vagina. He didn’t force the point, letting her have her way. Making a decision she pushed down onto his thrusting cock and his head sank into her, triggering her orgasm. She let out a little sob as her muscles pulsed so hard. He grunted and pulled out. She heard the meaty sounds of him jerking off before she felt his hot fluids spurt onto her ass.
They lay there, breathing deeply as their bodies calmed. She was sprawled all over him, feeling boneless but sated. Eventually she slowly rolled off of him and onto the bed. He pulled her close and she went to sleep.
+
After that, things were calmer between them, the days steadily sliding by. She still didn’t trust him but he didn’t push. He didn’t try to seduce her or chat her up. He was just.. there. Every morning he was up helping the kids get ready. At night after working with her at the tavern he would cook dinner. It wasn’t a bad living. Yuffie thought so too. They were alone in the dining room after closing, preparing for the next day. The elder children had been taken home by Barrett since they were tired. The twins were next to her.
“You look like a beautiful family.”
Tifa grunted as she rolled forks and knives in napkins.
“How long have they been with you?”
“A little over four months.” That reminded her, her cycle was coming again. Every fifty days without fail.
“What’s it like?”
“Well, it’s weird in a way. I mean he’s familiar but he’s a stranger too. As he’s aged he’s changed both in stature and maturity. You can see he’s humongous compared to how trim he was before.”
“Yeah, he’s like a walking brick wall. What do you think caused that?”
“I don’t know. It could be the mako, the Lifestream, genetics or a cross of all three. I just know I used to be able to look him in the eyes almost levelly. Now he’s almost as tall as Barrett.” She put the rollup aside and started another. “He’s still intense but not angry.”
“Have you talked about anything?”
“No. We’re just living from day to day. We’re either surrounded by children or people. When we are alone we’re too tired to do anything but go to sleep.”
“Maybe I could have a grand sleepover. My parents love having the children over. You can keep the twins but I’ll take everybody else Saturday afternoon. That will give you two a little time to talk. You can’t go on but for so long like this. It’s nice now but all it takes is one instance for everything to blow out of proportion.”
“True.”
“Besides, he hurt you badly and now he’s sleeping in your bed. You don’t want to start having sex with him with all that between you.”
“What makes you think I’ll let him sex me? I’ve been good all this time.”
“I’ve seen how he looks at you when you’re working. He wants you. Personally, I think he’s biding his time before he pounces.”
“He considers me a fuck toy, nothing more. Remember, he spent all that time in my bed just to marry Mira.” She started rolling another one. “He’ll rock me until the next hot thing pulls up.”
“I don’t know. I think it’s different this time.”
“The difference is three children.”
“Don’t you mean four?”
“No, three. When he came here told me he knew Ether was his.”
“That could have been a guess.”
Tifa shook her head. “No, his eyes glowed when he said it. I believe he knew when he visited me that day. He never asked of Ether’s parentage. Instead he asked when I had him and what his name was.”
Yuffie grimaced. “I wonder why he didn’t say anything.”
“That’s easy. Ether is mine.”
Cloud’s voice broke into their conversation and she rolled her eyes. Of course he would come over here now.
“That’s not the reason. We’re going to have to talk sooner than later, I see.”
Yuffie stood up and gave an uncomfortable laugh. “Tifa, we’ll talk about the sleepover later this week, ok?”
Tifa nodded. “Yes, Yuffie. I’ll see you later.”
“Bye!” Yuffie did a runner. Soon it was just the two of them.
Tifa kept rolling the napkins around the utensils. She wasn’t ashamed of what she said. It was the truth. She heard him sigh and sit down next to her. What surprised her was him reaching over and plopping her in his lap.
“Cloud!” She wiggled to get out of his grasp.
He held her tight. “Keep still!”
Sucking her teeth she did, folding her arms. His arms slowly loosened, and his hands gently caressed her thighs. Faint music played from the kitchen.
“Every day you wear some tight ass pants or a tight ass skirt and it hugs all of your curves. Top it off with these snug shirts that cup your breasts so nicely it’s rough being around you.”
“I don’t understand.”
“You’ve gained some weight since having Ether and it’s in all the right places. I’m hard most of the day. I want to bend you over and fuck you in the worst way.” He pushed her down so she could feel his dick.
She sucked her teeth again. “Been there, done that.”
“True, but I don’t because the air is filthy between us.”
“That’s one way to put it.”
“I’m sure throughout the years I’ve broken your heart. I definitely know I hurt you on more than one occasion. When I stepped into the room to see you with Ether and you wouldn’t even look at me, I knew I’d destroyed whatever was between us.” He kissed her neck softly.
Tifa blinked unsure of what to do or say.
“When I was in the Lifestream I remembered so many things. One of them was that I loved you. I didn’t know what type of love per se but it was a strong feeling. How I felt about Aerith was pretty much the same but I was able to compute that. See, when I saw her in the alley, that wasn’t the first time we’d met.”
Tifa frowned. “It wasn’t?”
“No. She was Zack’s lover.”
Tifa grimaced. “Okay.”
“Even though I was attracted, I loved Zack and hid my feelings. I was glad he was happy. ”
She nodded. Remembering Zack she could see that.
“When I saw her in that alley all the old feelings came back. Sephiroth had lost his mind and Zack was dead. There was no guilt in wanting her although I felt guilt about Zack’s death. Still, she had a way about her that soothed my soul. She’d told me I reminded her of Zack and I must admit I used that to my advantage. Sex with her was on another level. I don’t know if it was her technique or if I was just so enamored with her. It had been like nothing I’d ever experienced before. It was just crazy. While I knew you cared for me, what I felt for you paled at what I felt for her.”
That hurt.
Tifa tried to get up but he held her firmly to his chest. They fought for a few moments but he was too strong. “Let me go!”
“No. We need to talk about it. There’s nobody here but us and the babies. No one to interrupt or add anything extra. Too much time has passed in silence.”
“It hurts, Cloud.”
“I know, but there’s no other way to do it.”
She stopped fighting and released a long breath feeling tears well up in her eyes. He was right, they did need to talk about it but the pain was growing. “The more you say the harder it is to hear.”
“This is why I’m telling you the truth from the beginning. I believe all the pain you’re feeling is the pain you’ve hidden for so long. You need to let it go so you can heal.”
“I don’t know if I can.”
He sighed and nuzzled her. “When Sephiroth killed Aerith it was out of spite. I knew she was half Cetra but he’d had many chances. He’d wanted me to foster a seed of hate. I believe that hate would have made me join him because I would have been so blind to everything except vengeance. He was a master manipulator and he would have found a way to have it work in his favor. What changed my fate was your love. The love I’d pushed aside was the strongest of them all, for me anyway.
After the dust had settled there you were. We started rebuilding and it gave me something to focus on. Then I got hit with the geostigma. I didn’t want to hurt or infect you in some way so I left. After I was gone I realized I’d left you with Denzel and Marlene.” He paused for a moment. “I’m grateful you took such good care of them.”
“I couldn’t leave them to fend for themselves. I was entrusted to their care.”
“At the church I remember holding your hand. When Aerith and Zack healed my body I think they healed my mind as well. I didn’t feel so fractured or lost. There was so much to sort through in my head. It was a lot to deal with and I hadn’t even gotten over our first adventure.” He caressed her belly softly. “I was trying to get it together when we went to the hotel. I told you I needed a body and it was true. You were my solace as I sought to fuck away all of the guilt and pressure I’d carried on my shoulders. You took all of me and more. I know I treated you badly but you just held me, not rejecting me.”
“Right after that you dumped me on my doorstep and rode off.”
“I wasn’t ready to give you what you wanted. You would have expected me to stand up and be a man. Inside I wanted to curl into a ball and hide for a while. So I left and traveled all over on missions.”
“You never asked me what I wanted. That was your assumption, not my request.”
“I’ll give you that but it doesn’t change the past. That’s what I thought so I ran. I didn’t care about the kids or anything else. I just had to get away. When I returned I wasn’t sure what to say to you. There you were, looking all cool, calm and collected and I was a mess. Granted, not as bad as before but not up to par.” He squeezed her thighs lightly. “I had no intentions of having sex with you that day. One moment you were glaring at me and I thought ‘Would she make that same face while I fucked her?’ The next I had you bent over the bar. You were so tight I couldn’t stop myself.”
“I was so mad at you.” She wiped her face with the back of her hands.
“I know. That same night I slipped into your bed to get back into your good graces. We had sex and I’d thought you’d forgiven me the way you responded. Then you gave a small snore in the middle of the session. I’d forgotten how you behaved during sleep sex. I wore condoms because I didn’t want you to know what I was doing. That would have made you madder.”
“It would have.”
“When I left for all those months I had planned to tell you but I was feeling some type of way. You were out all day with a manwhore and had the nerve to come home late.”
“I’m grown.”
His hands slid up to cup her breasts. “Yes, you are.” He caressed them gently before his hands slid back to her waist. “Let’s finish this on the way home. It’s still light and we can have a nice walk.”
Nodding she got up and they closed the shop. She pushed the carriage down the street, enjoying the warm weather. Cloud walked peacefully beside her with his town sword on his back.
“Where was I?”
“You were fussing about me being out late.”
“Yeah. Somehow my goodbye speech got a little tangled in our emotions.”
“A little tangled? You came in me then left!”
“Ahaha! Yeah, I did.” He rubbed the back of his head self consciously. “While on that trip I met Mira and she reminded me so much of Aerith. While not an exact copy, there were just enough similarities to keep me enthralled. We started dating towards the end of our tour. When we returned to Edge she had a few things to do and left town.”
“So you came back to me.”
“Yes. I came back to you.”
“I was stupid enough to let you touch me again.”
“Don’t think of yourself as stupid. I’d missed you and wanted to spend some time with you.”
“You only wanted to have sex with me.”
“That was the only place I was on equal footing with you. You were so strong and independent and I found myself lacking. By this time I was making real money and had a good chunk in the bank. When that last set of missions rolled around I knew I was ready to settle down.”
“With Mira.” Her tone was matter of fact.
“With Mira.”
“So that last time was a goodbye fuck.”
“Umm, yeah.”
“Okay.” The ball was growing again. He was admitting that he’d planned on ditching them.
“The initial mission was only for two months and it was a one way trip. Afterwards we got married on this beautiful island and went on an extended honeymoon. We traveled all over and did simple missions that didn’t last longer than a week. It was a high time in my life and I had a blast. Mira was such great fun too. When I saw you that day with Ether I was just stopping by to say hi. We were leaving for a one month mission a few blocks from there. I was shocked to see you sitting there with him. I knew he was mine but I was taken aback. Nobody had told me you were pregnant.”
“Nobody knew until I was far into gestation. I carried him deep in my body.” The more she heard the worse she felt.
He nodded. “What did you do to Barrett to make him not tell me? He still won’t say.”
“That actually wasn’t me. He was asked the question of what difference would it make if you knew.”
He nodded. “I see.”
“When you left I was already two months along. By the time he found out I was almost eight months. You would have already been married.” She thought about something. “How did you know Ether was yours?” That wasn’t what she really wanted to ask but she held it in.
“When I got to your bedroom it smelled like us but that was impossible because I’d been gone a very long time. Seeing the baby made the most sense.”
“Your sense of smell is that acute?”
“Err, I can smell that no man has come in you for a long time. You smell like yourself and the children’s scents hover around you.”
“How do I smell?”
“Like milk and something I want to eat.”
Tifa felt a blush creep into her cheeks and cleared her throat. “Continue with your story.”
“Since you weren’t talking to me I went on my mission. I figured I would try again when I got back.”
“Did Mira know about Ether?”
“No. I didn’t see the point of telling her. That would have opened up a new can of worms.”
“How were you going to spill the beans?”
He shrugged. “I hadn’t thought that far ahead. In a way I’m glad I didn’t tell her. She may have wanted to meet him. When I got back you’d disappeared. Things were good for a long while then Mira blessed me with the news I was going to be a Daddy.”
She ignored that whole slew of statements. It wasn’t worth starting a fight for although she wanted to badly. He must have smelled her feelings because he cleared his throat and kept talking. “When Mira got pregnant she got terribly sick. Did you?”
“No. I was a little tired and hungry.”
“It forced her to stop going on missions for a while. The pregnancy was hard on her and Mirage was born early. She told me she never wanted another child. I agreed because she’d been miserable. She was in mother mode for two months before she went back on missions. Since someone had to stay home we would switch back and forth. She was happy again and I thought all was well.”
“What happened?”
“I found out she was taking pink missions.”
“What are pink missions? I’ve always heard people talk about them but never understood what they entailed.”
“Pink missions are fuck ones.”
Tifa frowned up at him. “Fuck ones?”
“Yes, they’re called pink because that’s the color of a woman’s pussy.”
“Oh! I guess that makes sense.”
“Normally pink missions are short and out in the wilderness or another city nearby. You fuck the way there and the way back. You also do some hunting and other mission based stuff but it’s mostly sex.”
“I take it you’ve been on a few.”
“Oh yes.” His eyebrow twitched. “That’s how I met Mira.”
“You met her on a pink mission and had sex with her?”
“With her and a few other females as well. I was the hired heat so I got as much ass as the mission financer.” He gave a small smile and she guessed he was sifting through some old memories. “That was a very interesting fifteen months to be sure.”
Tifa pushed the carriage around a small hole. If she would have had the chance she might have gone on a few. She wasn’t a prude although she didn’t have loads of experience.
“We got into it but she didn’t stop. She was in great demand since her heat cycle made her like a ravenous sexual beast. One cycle she was home and we fucked like bunnies. That’s how she ended up pregnant with the twins. I didn’t hear the end of it but whatever. She tried to get rid of them twice. The first time she got very sick. The second time she kind of succeeded. She gave birth to them at the five month gestation mark. They were fully formed and almost three pounds. It was touch and go but they survived.”
“That’s why they’re so tiny.”
“Yeah. I made her pump milk for them.”
“How did you make her pump milk?”
“I told her I would divulge the truth of her delivery.”
“The truth of her delivery?”
“That she almost destroyed her health and theirs to go on pink missions. I know quite a few people and that would have ruined her reputation, especially since we were married.”
“Didn’t her being married affect anything?”
“No. She earned damned good money just because she was. Men get titillated by the fact they’re ramming someone else’s wife. She was on a pink mission when she died. I was shocked when her account was transferred into mine. I had a lot of money because I did a lot of S-class missions and had low overhead. Most of her mission work had been pink. She’d even taken them during both pregnancies. That’s why I’m not broken up over her death.”
Tifa made a face. “Sheesh.”
“We were headed for divorce but I was gonna make her pay for caring for the girls. That’s the only reason she didn’t follow through. All mission logs are public property but you have to know where to look and what you’re looking for. It won’t have names but the colors will show. She would have been forced to pay child support for the girls even though I made more than her.”
“Why?”
“Because she broke the oath of fidelity. It’s different if we’d have negotiated an open marriage. Even if I shared her with the world, on paper she was considered monogamous. I told her we could do open but she didn’t want me sleeping with other people.”
“That was selfish.”
“Yeah but what she didn’t know wouldn’t hurt her. Her buddies used to stop by all the time to check in on me. That normally meant some head or sex for me. We were discreet and we covered up so whatever.” He stuck the key into their front door and held it open for her.
She shook her head. He had done a lot of living these last few years. He was nothing like the bruised, guilt ridden person she used to know. This Cloud was tough and unrepentant in his feelings and actions. They went into the bedroom and got the twins settled for the night. Then they came out to eat the dinner Barrett had left. He was probably in his room tinkering with something. It was quiet at the table as they were both in their thoughts.
Tifa had to admit she was in a bad way. Listening to how he’d been enthralled and made plans to settle down with Mira had been galling. When he was home he’d sexed her day and night. The nonchalant manner in which he talked about being a serial cheater was disheartening as well. Then again, who knew how far he’d been broken down to be so rough. She knew what heartbreak could do.
The ball, which was huge now, still roiled in her chest but it didn’t have an outlet. It just spun making her feel like she was going to choke on her emotions.
“Go take your shower and I’ll clean up.”
She nodded and got up. In the bedroom she undressed slowly before heading to the bathroom. Getting into the shower, she stared at the tile as water ran down her body. It made pitter patter noises on her shower cap like rain on the pavement. The sound was like an invitation. Her eyes teared up and overflowed as the ball burst into a cascade of pain.
Why couldn’t she have fallen for Barrett or somebody else? Anybody but this man who’d put her through the emotional wringer. He’d been living his life and she’d been picking up all the pieces of everything he’d left behind. He’d left her with Denzel and Marlene and it had been so hard. Nobody had taught her how to be a mother. She’d started with the basics then worked her way up. Babysitting was not the same as parenting. She’d also had to learn how to be a better business woman because she needed to do more than just get by. Thankfully friends had helped her get it together.
Upon his return Cloud had been so cold. It seemed like she’d always been staring at his back as he walked away from her. She covered her mouth as the sobs grew louder.
From what he’d said she’d been his fuck toy. Someone to keep his dick warm until he’d been ready to move on to the next part of his life. On that she had to take the L. She’d never been able to fight her feelings for him or maybe she just hadn’t tried. She’d been foolish, hoping love would save the day like it had before. Thinking back, he’d never promised her anything, not even another fuck. He’d just come and gone as he pleased. No matter how mad she got or how many times they fought she ended up beneath him, moaning in pleasure.
She was so stupid! She covered her face as it once again hit her how silly she’d been. He’d abandoned her, Ether, Denzel and Marlene happily like a snake shedding its skin in relief. If Edge hadn’t been seized she doubted he’d have shown his face again.
How could she let him back into her bed? It had been practical to let him sleep with her but she should have figured something else out. What was wrong with her? It’s like once he touched her the mental part of her sense left her. It was only a matter of time before the next Aerith lookalike came around. Knowing him he’d probably ditch the girls too.
The door opened but she didn’t look, she was too lost in her pain. He cut off the water and assisted her out of the tub by her arm. She was too tired to fight and stood there weeping as he dried her off.
She felt her world tilt as he lifted her up and put her into bed. She hugged her pillow and tried to stop crying so much. She didn’t want to wake the babies. Instead, she shook as she internalized her misery. He climbed on the bed and pulled her to his chest. Eventually she fell asleep, exhausted from her crying jag.
The twins crying woke her from sleep. She slowly opened her eyes to see Cloud lifting Sillia from her crib. He brought her over and she sat up to take her. Her breasts felt like they were about to burst. The little girl latched on and Tifa wiped away her tears. They’d grown quite large in the months they’d been here, doubling their weight. The pediatrician had been impressed. Cloud sat next to her with Stellia. He held her to his face and kissed her cheeks. The baby slowly stopped crying as her father charmed her. When Sillia pulled away she switched with him. Stellia’s bright blue eyes stared at her as she nursed. She smiled at her and caressed the soft baby curls.
After the girls were back in their crib he grabbed her hand and pulled her to the bathroom. Running the shower he got in with her. He washed her down but didn’t try to seduce her. After 0they dried off they went back to bed. It was only about three thirty. The girls had woken up early.
His front was to her back and she could feel the hardness of his member on her butt. He didn’t rock though, just kept still. “You always looked at me like you expected me to do more. That scared me so bad. I was still trying to figure out who I was and you wanted me to be responsible, make proper decisions and move on with my life.”
“Actually I just wanted you. You never understood that. You had grown so much over our journey to stop Sephiroth. You were strong, dependable and a capable leader. In the beginning you wanted to be a hero. In the end you became one because you understood there was more than glory when it came to saving the day. It involved dedication and sacrifice. We all learned those things but you grew the most. You had fully evolved.”
“When I went on missions it was like I was a god or something. All these women were all over me and the men respected my strength. Yet when I was with you none of that mattered. I felt like you had judged me and found me wanting. Even Aerith and Mira worshipped me a little. You just put me to work and treated me like anyone else.”
“Why would I worship you? You weren’t an idol or a statue. You were a man who struggled to become the best through trials and tribulations that would have broken a lesser person. I didn’t want you on a pedestal! I wanted you in my arms. I loved you!”
There. She’d said it.
He froze for a moment before his grip tightened. “I knew that. Back then I thought that being in love meant I was responsible for someone else’s feelings.”
“That’s a whole lie! You can’t force me to feel anything if I don’t want to.”
“When I was out on the road I was only responsible for myself. When I was on missions I was responsible for others or cargo for a certain amount of time for a certain price. Those were simple things. When I was with you things were so complicated. At least I thought they were at the time. Looking back I was very immature because I had no problems hooking up with Mira. It was easy to be with her because she had no expectations of me. She wanted to have fun all the time. All those pink missions should have been a red flag.
It wasn’t until our marriage broke down that I saw the fallacy of my reasoning. Once Mirage came along everything wasn’t fun or easy. Now we had to have someplace stable to live. Staying in hotels for a few days in between missions wasn’t going to cut it. We had to make sure Mira ate so she could feed Mirage. She only breastfed for two months then we put the baby on formula. That was expensive but we were making the money. Suddenly I had to be responsible for two people.”
“Two people, huh?”
“Mira wasn’t much of a mother but some people aren’t. She also had very little practical knowledge because the men she dealt with took care of everything. She didn’t know about taking care of a household or baby anymore than I did. I just did what you used to make me do and it worked. The house was clean and food was on the table. You don’t know how many times I was grateful for you being so mean to me making me do all those chores.”
Tifa gave a small smile. “I wasn’t mean to you.”
“You weren’t. You helped me in many ways that you can’t imagine. When I drew a blank I would think about what you would do and did it. Even Mira was impressed with how fastidious I was.”
Tifa chuckled. “Fastidious, eh?”
“Yeah. I could cook rings around her and I was a whiz at housekeeping. I never thought all those hours of menial labor would make a difference. I used to sweep and mop all the time. Mira’s friends swore she kept a fab house.” He sighed. “The worse things got between us the more I realized how stupid I’d been. Mira had been a fantasy that lasted until real life kicked in.
I avoided you because I wanted to live that fantasy and you wouldn’t let me. I knew if I called you’d ask me all sorts of questions I wouldn’t have answers for. You’d tell me to save my money and eat properly. All things I didn’t want to hear or do. I was happy living frivolously and I knew you’d put paid to that quickly.”
“There is more to life than living for today. We lived through hell and saw so much poverty and death. We had a chance to make it and I wasn’t going to blow it. It was hard having two children around the same age with different needs. I didn’t know about raising kids anymore than you did but I learned. I had to make choices based on the future because I still had to feed them tomorrow. They needed love and stability. I was their stable person.
Of course I expected you to take responsibility for things on your end. Denzel was your ward and what type of father figure could you be if you didn’t behave properly. I didn’t get a chance to do anything but work because you dumped everything on me and left. While you were having fun I was raising your ward with no help from you, either financially or emotionally. I did it because I had no choice. Right now if you left tomorrow the children would be okay because that’s what you do. If I decided to go anywhere it’s with three other beings. When you think about it you are living your fantasy life.”
He opened his mouth to respond but the alarm went off. It was time to get up. She sat up and started to get ready for the day. He said nothing else and they went through their routine. He was quiet all day and she left him to it. When it got around four o’clock she decided to leave early. She and the children walked home, Denzel pushing Ether and Mirage’s double stroller.
“Do you think Cloud’s going to stay this time, Mommy?”
“I don’t know. He’s not one for staying anywhere.”
“He seems different.” Marlene’s voice was thoughtful.
“How so?”
“He used to look like he forgot where he put his toys.”
Tifa laughed. “What does that mean?”
“He looked kind of sad and confused. Like he put down his toy car and it just disappeared, not realizing his mother had cleaned up and put it away.”
“That is a great alliteration. How does he look now?”
“He looks like you when you put the toys up because we didn’t listen. He’s not sad or confused anymore, just disappointed.”
“He even acts like a parent now.” Denzel shook his head in agreement.
“He does?”
“Yes. He keeps sending me to the bathroom in the morning to wash behind my ears and brush my teeth. It’s very annoying.”
Tifa mentally cackled. “Doesn’t Barrett do that?”
“No. Barrett is more like an uncle, not as strict.”
“Maybe having all those children has changed him.” Marlene looked to her for confirmation.
“Maybe.”
“Where’s his wife?”
“She died.”
“That’s too bad. Little children need a mother. Are you their mother now?” Denzel looked at her expectantly.
“Umm, Cloud may have something to say about that. They’re his children.”
“So is Ether and you’re his mother.”
She looked at Denzel askance. “What makes you think Cloud is his father?”
“Besides the fact that his eyes glow green all the time and he looks exactly like him?”
She would be no match for these children. “I’ll grant you that.”
“You should be their mother. You’ll feed them and love them. They look so much better than when they first came.”
“Yeah, look at how nice Mirage has filled out.”
Marlene had heard that from Yuffie. It was true though. She’d put on about fifteen pounds in the four months they’d been here. She was becoming healthily plump. The doctor had said it was in her nature to be so. Apparently the formula hadn’t been that good for her. Tifa had so much milk now she used the excess pumped milk for the older children. Mirage chugged it down like it was soda. She’d also been eating really well. She was doing much better than when she’d first arrived even though she hadn’t been in bad health.
When they got home she put on some music while she cooked dinner. Denzel and Marlene washed while the other two ran around. The twins were in their rockers laughing at the antics of Ether and Mirage. She made a meatloaf, mashed potatoes and a green leafy vegetable. Then she got them all situated around the table and fed them. It was nice with the twins next to her in their floating high chairs and the others stuffing their faces. Then the two oldest went to their rooms to relax and do what they wanted until bedtime. She put Ether and Mirage in the tub together in a bubble bath and the twins were in the swing watching television.
After those two wiggly beings were in their respective cribs it was the twins’ turn. They smiled at her as she sat in the tub and washed them. She washed herself and got them ready for bed. She was asleep by seven thirty and the men still weren’t back.
She was woken up by something that told her she needed to get up. Blinking in confusion she wondered what had woken her when she felt the tongue on her clit. She sucked in a breath as an orgasm made her pussy muscles clench. Biting her palm she held in the loud moan she wanted to emit. She bucked, rubbing herself against the face on her crotch. When she calmed somewhat she lifted the cover and saw Cloud’s eyes glowing in the dark. He started nibbling on her again and she arched away. He held her down and stuck his tongue into her.
This was madness but it felt so good. Why was he doing this? She didn’t know because he knocked her out.
At four o’clock on the nose the twins started whimpering and she got up, feeling refreshed. They were sleeping through the night now so she got a good rest. He was up as well and handed her the children. As soon as he grabbed Stellia he held up a hand. “Stay there for a moment.”
Confused she did so. He burped his daughter then put her down after wiping her little gums. Then he knelt before her and grabbing a breast put it in his mouth. She gasped as he pulled the leftover milk from her. He ran his tongue all around her nipple and she shuddered. His thumb started rubbing her clit.
“Cloud, what are you doing?”
Saying nothing he went to the other breast and did the same. She was about to orgasm but he stopped and stood up holding out his hand. Standing she followed him to the bathroom. He ran the shower and helped her in. Then he leaned her against the wall and ate her out till she moaned out her release. After that they washed and got ready for the day.
At the tavern he was in a great mood which was surprising but she rolled with it. Everything flowed well and he sent her home early with the kids. This became the new daily routine. He refused to say anything outside of basic conversation but kept pleasuring her. He didn’t try to breach her yet he did knock her out every night. She didn’t trust him in the least but she wasn’t sure how to stop him. To be honest she wasn’t sure she wanted to. It felt so good.
A little over two weeks later Tifa sighed deeply as she lay in the bed. Fertility season was upon her again and the showerhead didn’t do it’s job. Cloud wasn’t home yet. She twisted and turned trying to get comfortable. Around eight or so he walked into the room and headed straight for the bathroom. He came out damp and butt ass naked. Climbing into bed he faced her. “Can I have a kiss?”
“No.”
He rubbed a very sensitive nipple and she moaned softly. “Tifa, can I have a kiss?”
“No.”
“You’re supposed to ask why.”
She grunted. “I don’t care why.”
He chuckled and snatched her up. Now his mouth was hovering over one breast. “Can I have some milk?”
“You’ve never asked before.”
“True.” He sucked a nipple into his mouth and drew out her milk. His tongue was moving all over and it felt more than nice, her vagina fluttering with sensation. After that one was empty he moved to the other. She was so turned on by this licking she was sure she was going to come soon. It was so wet between her legs. When he was done he shifted upwards until his head was on the pillow. “Do you want to use my body to get off?”
She was tempted to say yes but she couldn’t get his words out of her head. “I don’t think that’s a good idea.”
“You’ll be up half the night.”
“I’ve made it through years without help.”
“Tifa.”
“Don’t Tifa me. I listened to your story and all I heard was how you ran away to be free. You used me for my body and ditched me more than once. I don’t even know what number child Ether is to you.”
“He’s my firstborn.”
She felt her arousal turning into anger. “That makes it even worse. You didn’t want your perfect little life disturbed so you acted like we didn’t exist. You know one day the children asked me if you were dead. I told them you’d gotten married and had a baby. They weren’t even hurt by the knowledge because that was such a Cloud thing to do. They were more interested in if they would ever see you again. Denzel told me your name was apropos because you disappeared and reappeared like clouds in the sky.
Now you’re back but goodness only knows for how long. I’m betting until the next embodiment of Aerith comes down the line. I wouldn’t even be surprised if you left the girls so you could be free to wander into the next stage of your fantasy life.”
“I wouldn’t do that.” His voice was quiet.
She made a rude noise. “History says otherwise. I get that you needed time to find yourself. I understand that things happened so damned hard and fast. Sometimes living in the moment can be intense and tomorrow seems so far away. I got hit with that too and it can be overwhelming. There were other ways to go about it though. You just kept compounding the original sin. You knew you were hurting me but I was collateral damage. The worst part is it didn’t have to be that way! Of all the people in the world you chose to shit on me!”
“Tifa-”
“No! I don’t even know why I’m helping you now, but you’re here. You got to travel and do all sorts of interesting things, like get married and have multiple affairs. I’ve been lonely because I had to start over with my family and there’s no time for me to date. I’m too busy trying to survive. I don’t feel sorry for you or your circumstances. Personally, I think it’s karma for everything you did to me.”
Frustrated at the tears rolling down her face Tifa got up, snagged her pillow and left. Thankfully no one was around because she was naked. Snagging a sheet she wrapped herself in it and curled on her recliner. Once again she cried herself to sleep.
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